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Quitting advice

2020.10.05 09:28 spacemonkey2161 Quitting advice

I've quit yet again and thought I'd share a few tips that've helped over the years. Hopefully of value to someone else here, but also writing it down as a way to reinforce my own accountability.
Disclaimer: I'm an extreme user with diagnosed bipolar 2, so some of this may sound like overkill.
That said, even if you're less afflicted than I've been, having a nothing-to-lose approach can only strengthen your chances.
Detox phase (2 weeks):
Rebuilding phase (3-6 months):
Sealing the deal phase (>6 months):
A lot of this can be done in rehab. If you're a serious user and haven't succeeded on your own, no shame in going away for 3-6 months. Just be careful of the friends you make in there.
If there's an underlying mental health issue like there is in my case, that needs to come first. Most long-term stoners need to go on an anti-depressent for 12 months after they quit. Sometimes for life.
In my case as a bipolar it's slightly different as they can trigger hypomania, but so far the mood stabiliser I've been taking has been a perfect fit - quitting feels a lot more stable than it used to, even though there's been plenty of stopping and starting the past several weeks.
Random DVD extras:
Why meditation is so helpful:
Also: intense cardiovascular exercise has been shown to improve neurogenesis and neuroplasticity; it helps in the process of habit formations and skill-learning.
Don't let yourself be addicted to how you feel.
Become addicted to making other people feel better.
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2020.09.30 11:54 nobbly_norman Attachment & love... loss of awareness, insight & wisdom

I came on here to post this as I have been 'researching' into this through youtube and most of the sources I came across were related to Buddhism.
So it seems that the universe really really does have a way of bringing out things in you that you must work on.
This year has been especially turbulent for me. I was hit with something that seemed to be kundalini or some other form of awakening resulting in strong energies moving around my body. It has been 10 months ish and now I feel totally drained, worn out, just sad, angry, frustrated... quite frankly I am sick of it all. It also now feels as though someone has turned the dial of life way way down. Disconnection, lack of feel, numbness etc.
I have reverted back to simple metta and vipassana meditations as the Kundalini & Tantrik Sadhanas just need to take secondary importance right now. I feel I am heavily missing self love. So onto the topic...
As I said... things have been turbulent. I have been shown everything I have repressed, not wanted to look at. It felt as though I was in a psychedelic state for months. Things were magical, insights, bliss, pain, suffering, watching cycles, purging, crying, feeling totally alive and ecstatic. Really just amazing. Now it seems that things are happening in my life to really show me how attached I am to external things... people, food, distractions. Anything to take me away from this feeling of inferiority, worthlessness, inability to just sit (I thought I could just sit! I did a vipassana retreat. I meditate for about an hour each morning. I spend most of my time alone working on myself!!!) But it seems something is not right... or that I am doing things from an incorrect view, giving the impression that something is not right.
Essentially I have been separated from my partner for 8 months. I was meant to see her soon but my flight was cancelled. As part of this trip I am also going over to heal through certain types of holistic treatment under the guidance of someone with many years of experience. So no matter how angry I feel, how much I want to and not want to go... I know that this is the path for me and I just need to bear it all until I get there.
So the flight was cancelled. I became even more so angry... also my partner and I are not talking as she has disconnected from the internet. This has made things very difficult for me. I have a lot of fears, attachments. My mind is mostly negative thoughts, pains in the body etc. These are things I have 'burned' through before using tantrik meditation methods or even just observed rising, noticed that there is still a part of me drawn to pain, laughing, and then watching it fall. Now it's as though there is no separation. I identify with all thoughts, emotions and states. This is certainly not great when your mind feels so polluted with crap... especially crap you really felt you had dealt with over and over throughout the past year.
Sleeping is difficult for me too - I am always waking up in the night. There seems to be a recurring theme of me being so tired that I just pass out, and then wake up, drowning in this negative, burning angry state, and then this lasts for days or perhaps weeks.
Sorry. I tried not to blab but this is some of the background.
So I have never felt love before in my life. I always thought I was quite independent and non-attached, however as soon as I met my partner I felt love... well I felt a deep golden warm energy flood my body. It was very dramatic. I have let go of her so many times and really felt that deeper unconditional love - everything opens, nothing is scary. Everything makes sense, even amongst all of the other 'crap' I feel and sense.
Anyway... with our drop of communication between each other and the cancellation of my flight, it has been very difficult for me, and it actually the reason I dropped my other meditation practices, focusing on metta and vipassana. I am also praying, using mantras. Anything to give in, let go and love.
I feel as though this is the thing I must focus on... love and acceptance of myself, exactly as I am, regardless of all outcomes, regardless of what may or may not happen, regardless of what I want or think I want (I just want love!).
It feels as though I am going through a breakup. That my heart is breaking. I assume this is necessary although nothing of the sort is really happening in our relationship. I sometimes wonder if I am strengthening myself for something. It feels as though I am being shown difficult life lessons whilst being protected from the physical outcomes of them (this has happened for many things, not just this). Or maybe I am pointlessly putting myself through suffering because of very low values and self-worth.
This feels like a massively monumental task for me... one that I am dedicated to, but also I believe I do not have healthy internal systems of communication with myself, and (as within so without) my relationships with everything. The are some very crazy, disturbing fears and scenes that my mind creates (and I have followed and believed) when trying to connect with my true nature, or when trying to love and accept myself. It's as though something terrible or world ending will happen.
This is essentially why I am sourcing professional help as I don't think I am able to heal myself when my lens is so murky... 2 dirty mirrors facing each other seems a good metaphor to relate this to.
For example, when thinking of unconditional love, it feels perverse, strange, lonely and wrong to me. It feels as though people will just wander around nihilistically spreading love and moving on. It's as though everyone has to be this high form of realized being where everyone are free to do whatever they want, nothing is respected because of unconditional love. That partners cannot stay together, they are free to engage with others sexually, or just leave you and if you say anything then the response is 'you love me with conditions'.
I can understand that these are just part of my own crazy fears, negative self views... but this is all I have at the moment. Just painful thoughts, memories, states. Nowhere safe.
People tell me these are just thoughts. True... but since awakening deeper last year these things have been rampant... just constant and to much higher peaks previously. However previously there was room for separation. I just now feel absorbed by them. There's no escape because there's nothing to escape from because I am them.
It's so strange because nothing is really happening in my life physically. But mentally it is another world entirely.
I also had this sense throughout most of the really difficult times, this connection I could make that felt divine. It kept me going through some really really tough times. It didn't really matter too much how bad things were because I would just connect, and even through feeling the tiniest bit of joy, bliss or hope... it would be enough. It would feel like a hand reaching out onto my shoulder to let me know everything will be okay, or just a soft push in the right direction.
Things right now feel very spikey, hard, rigid. It also feels as though I have lost the ability to go into these experiences deeply through Tantrik approaches (which really were my secret weapon... a life line that I could feel burning through negative energies).
I do however have a sense that I am to continue this practice of awareness, loving-kindness, trust and prayer. These are the things that really kept me going previously. And it seems that attachment likely built up because I stopped prayers of renunciation.
I realize I've blabbed a lot but if anyone can offer any advice it would be appreciated.
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2020.09.10 02:13 worried_monkey Opinions on Culadasa as a teacher?

I have been thinking of reading Culadasa's The Mind Illuminated to augment my vipassana practice. Investigating further, I see Culadasa has been accused to extramarital but consensual affairs (and consorting with prostitutes). This does not seem to me to following the Buddhists precept of no sexual abuse - unless his partner had given explicit consent (which I do not know about). I was lookingfor opinions on the merits of the book and how to balance that the book maybe is beneficial despite the human flaws of the author.
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2020.08.25 15:28 Yonski3 I’m now realizing that the idea of spiritual awakening is just another thing that is pushing me away from the simplicity of being

For years I been practicing Vipassana meditation in the hopes of finding peace and to “liberate” myself from this world and all of its suffering.
Till recently it finally dawn on me.
This spiritual chase is just another chase.
Not any better then chasing money, hunting for a better job, searching for the perfect partner or dreaming about a life of fame and fortune.
Actually in some ways it’s even worse because unlike those “worldly” goals, in the spiritual chase – you can never actually get there so you will not experience that rude awakening of not getting what you hoped for.
I am now coming to terms that life is simple, It’s happening right now and they do not require any fixing at all.
What do you guys make of it?
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2020.08.04 01:52 justalittlegrace Chronic Relapser Calls It Quits

It has been thirty-eight relapses since I started trying.
For years, I didn't see the appeal of weed and couldn't understand why Mike had to stop home before we played disc golf to smoke, or Gary needed it to code. However, I did try a little once, and after moving to a larger, marijuana-friendly city ten years ago, I began to partake. At first it was rare and occasional, and then I started dating a partner that kept a dugout on them and smoked one-hitters constantly. I'd just quit smoking cigarettes two years prior, and smoking weed quickly became a favorite priority. We'd scrounge money together for a gram or two, or buy ditch weed from the disabled lady next door. Casually, I mentioned to my partner at one point that I wasn't even getting high anymore. They looked at me incredulously and asked, why do you keep doing it then? I replied that I was always hoping the next hit would be the one to get me high.
The next decade was spent chasing that feeling. Weed only got me to The New Normal, not the euphoric hazy days. I smoked when I woke up, smoked before work (and sometimes during) smoked and did the dishes, smoked and did yoga and meditation, smoked everyday while training for a marathon, smoked before bed. I smoked through endless cycles of dry heaving, dark green phlegm, itchy hives that I thought for years were bedbugs; my facial acne worsened. I smoked a huge bowl minutes before leaving for inpatient rehab last year, thinking it might be my last.
Once I left rehab and the sober house after, I lasted about ten days on my own. I was convinced I couldn't quit alcohol and weed the same time, and told myself alcohol was the priority right now, and I needed to use weed as my crutch. Since everyone now knew me as sober, that was when my marijuana usage got sneaky. Parking garages, behind buildings, in the shed in the backyard, in the woods. I bought bowls and grinders, I gave bowls and grinders away, I destroyed bowls and grinders, I threw bowls and grinders off bridges, I bought more bowls and grinders. I deleted my dealer's number once, just to find it again three weeks later on an old piece of paper. Hid a bowl in the woods inside a tree only to find it again as well. Despite a 10-day silent meditation course (Vipassana) my cycle continued once I returned home.
Last November, I asked my best friend to quit with me (just a month for them) to get me started on my ForRealQuit. That time, I only made it two weeks; they are still smoke-free despite the fact they did not set out to quit long-term. I still don't understand why it's so easy for some people and so difficult for myself.
That being said, I have quit cigarettes, alcohol, junk food, sodas, and have overcome a number of struggles in my life. This one, no matter how difficult, was going to be the next to go.
Seeing as though I had tried everything except for posting here, I set a quit date, said goodbye to my dealer, smoked my last bowl last Friday night, and Saturday morning drove out to the Buddhist temple and laid my pipe at the feet of Guan Yin, the goddess of mercy.
The intense itching is already dissipating, the loss of appetite and the night sweats have returned predictably, the cravings come and go in waves. This part is familiar. The tricky part for me is the third week, when the symptoms fade and the romanticism begins.
So, here I am, day three. Weed is already associated with yoga, meditation, and running in my psyche, and so it's a struggle to find activities that don't trigger cravings. But! This is the time I will stay the course. This is the time I am reaching out and asking for help. My time is now.
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2020.07.02 09:33 RisingSun7799 Practicing SR since July 2017; finally conquered Nocturnal Emissions for 3 Whole Months using Subliminals

2 accounts got shadowbanned for uploading this post. Spam filter kept on removing it this post. Messaged the moderators, but received no answer. Removed many links, so check post history for full version.

Estimated Reading Time: 15 minutes
Brief summary of post:
  1. History of Journey
  2. Using Subliminals (affirmations converted into audio) to reprogram the subconscious, overcome nocturnal emissions, and turbo-charge the Law of Attraction
  3. Experience from meditation retreats
  4. Massive booklist covering psychotherapy, spirituality, and general books such as negotiating and advanced social skills
  5. Fundamental shifts that occurred
  6. Experiences with semen-retention benefits
  7. How I overcame and conquered negative entities
  8. Tantric meditation method that actually works with zero side effects
  9. Experience on speaking Japanese for 1 full hour with native speakers without notes after 3 months of learning

Terminology:
Wet dream/WD – sexual dream causing semen emission while sleeping
Nocturnal Emission/NE – semen emission occurring while sleeping even without dreaming
Semen-retention/SR streak – avoiding porn, masturbation, and ejaculation whether conscious or unconscious
Nofap Hardmode – avoiding porn, masturbation, and conscious ejaculation. Unconscious ejaculation/WD is considered fine.

As the title suggests, my current streak started in the middle of June 2017. Haven’t watched any porn or masturbated in 3 years. Experienced almost all the benefits such as massive attraction (men, women, children), an aura/energy surrounding me, enhanced charisma, less need for sleep, insane levels of energy, drive, and motivation, zero anxiety or fear, massive confidence occasionally bordering on arrogance, increased manifestation/LOA, people admiring/respecting me for no reason, online attraction, less procrastination, better athletic performance, greater creativity/intelligence, the desire to live a purposeful life, greater emphasis on spirituality, and much much more. Could probably write several posts just on the benefits themselves. Only thing that didn’t improve was my skin, which was later fixed using subliminals.
It’s been a long journey, so I’ll start with background information, and later elaborate on how I managed to go from nocturnal emissions every 5 days (avg) to having a perfect SR streak for 3 months.
Used to watch anime which led to hentai (2013), and eventually western/japanese porn. Don’t even bother to search these terms on Google. It’s not worth it. Thankfully, those days are long behind me. As a side-note, I discovered the nofap/semen-retention subreddit in November 2017. Didn’t even know about SR before that.
I was raised a Catholic in a fairly religious family. Always started various streaks, and eventually broke them due to boredom/emotional coping/curiosity about new videos. Thankfully, I got good grades, read books, and was interested in self-development, but all that time spent on porn was a complete waste. Assuming I spent at least 2 hours everyday for 4 years (1460 days), it amounts to 122 complete days or around 4 months in total. It’s pretty sad on reflection, but at least the experience is now absorbed, and I can write this post.
On June 2017, after summer break started and final exams were over, I decided to permanently quit this habit. Downloaded an application called Cold Turkey and completely blocked all websites I used to visit. Now use Leechblock, which is available on most browsers (also use it to block/restrict access to non-NSFW websites which impair productivity like ESPN). Started 30 minutes of daily meditation (mindfulness + metta). Still continue the habits to this day, although the length is increased to 1 hour. Read Mindfulness in Plain English by Bhante Gunaratana and Lovingkindness by Sharon Salzberg for instructions. Have re-read these books multiple times.
Mindfulness will allow you to be self-aware of your mental conditioning, while metta (feeling compassion for yourself, a friend, neutral person, and enemy) can remove thoughts of lust and fundamentally alter your mental programming. Compassion is a very powerful exercise. Read “The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion by Christopher Germer” while you’re at it and learn tonglen. All of these books contain zero fluff, and are invaluable reads.
Started drinking 16 glasses of water (thought it would help skin, but helped in other ways), and doing 100 pushups + 100 sit-ups everyday. Increased it to 200 pushups + 200 sit-ups after 1 month. After 2 months, I made a decent amount of gains (SR helps), and people started asking me workout tips and what gym I go to. Had a Kindle Paperwhite, which is frankly one of my most valued possessions. Still works perfectly fine after 5 years, and costs only $130. Buy one now. Read a lot of books mostly consisting of biographies/spirituality/practical social skills/800+ page novels for around 6 hours per day. Still try to read for at least 15 minutes/1 chapter even when extremely busy. Will post a small booklist at the end of this post.
You can upload books to it for free if you lack money. Visit (gen.lib.rus.ec), download the ebook in epub/mobi format, open it with Calibre (https://calibre-ebook.com/), and send it to Kindle using USB. Knowledge is an investment that produces continuous returns. Warren Buffett spends 80% of his time just reading! and takes action based on that knowledge.
Even managed to have the motivation to learn Japanese by joining a foreign language exchange website. People, especially women, accepted and sent a lot of invitations to have a conversation; didn’t realize online attraction was due to SR back then. None of us showed our faces, so my physical appearance had nothing to do with it. From experience, the best way to learn a language was to make a phrase sheet with the most common phrases/questions, such as “okay”, “that’s awesome”, “what is that word in English/Japanese?” Basically a human AI bot. Don’t waste time trying to learn how to write the alphabet, although my primary purpose was to learn how to speak. Google Translate is good enough to understand the pronunciation.
I learned Japanese primarily by watching Terrace House. First watched the episode with subtitles, then re-watched it without, while simultaneously writing all the connectives/conversational phrases. You can try unique methods to remember, but brute-force memorization/review worked the best. Never tried Anki since it was cumbersome to use.
For the accent, the best way is to watch Japanese people trying to speak English, and try to mirror their accent as much as possible. It honestly helps. After 3 months, I could have a full 1 hour conversation in Japanese with a native speaker without looking at any notes. I wasn’t “fluent” (still stuttered and made mistakes), but it was a huge amount of progress for starting from scratch. Eventually after 6 months, I gave up practicing/speaking the language. I was mainly trying to fulfill a childhood fantasy, and I’m glad I tried since I learned a lot from it and got to talk with interesting people. But in reality, I stopped watching anime, and honestly never needed to speak Japanese in real-life. Now I barely remember any of the words, except a few basic phrases. Could probably last 30 seconds of full conversation at best.
So, everything was going great until December 2017. During this time period, I probably had wet dreams/nocturnal emissions every 1 – 2 months. Barely felt much difference since there was a decent time interval between emissions. Drank 2 glasses of water everyday before bed, slept on my stomach, and ate spicy food (practices that cause nocturnal emissions), but was perfectly fine. However in December I started having emissions every 2 weeks. Initially didn’t care about it. In January it started happening every 1 week. Nothing really changed in my life during this time to cause emissions to increase. Then it started happening every 5 days, every 3 days, sometimes even 2 days in a row!
Most of you will have no idea how terrible it feels to be on top of the world, and then suddenly crash down. The difference between living life with/without SR benefits is night and day. Even after sleeping 10 hours, I used to feel completely exhausted. People ignored me, or worse started “joking” around me. Complete disrespect by friends, family, and acquaintances. No energy/motivation to do anything. Constant brain fog, could barely concentrate. Felt even worse than my porn days when I ejaculated everyday. Voice completely shot, started feeling anxious about oral presentations for no reason, when I always excelled. Felt like my soul was dying. Those were really dark times. People started saying I “changed”, and started pointing out and constantly magnifying my flaws. It’s strange how people exaggerate our skills/talents on SR, while they completely ignore them post WD/ejaculation, and focus only on your flaws/mistakes. It makes you lose trust in everyone around you, as if all of them are energy vampires who only like you due to SR.
I grew desperate. During this whole time I meditated, practiced no lust/no arousal as best as possible since July 2017, yet emissions increased massively in frequency. Some occurred due to sexual dreams, but most were nocturnal emissions. Thought I had a UTI at first, and went to a general practitioner. He didn’t seem very reliable, so I went to a prominent urologist. Did all sorts of tests, paid a good amount of money, and the doctor said everything was fine. Having nocturnal emissions every 5 days was perfectly normal at my age. Encouraged me to masturbate regularly if it became an inconvenience :)
So medical science obviously failed. Started following all the tips/methods in this subreddit, and believe me I tried almost everything no matter how uncomfortable or time-consuming. Omad, avoid food/water before bed, vegetarianism, tantric meditation, different diets, various sleeping positions, no/increased meditation before bed, no/more exercise, yogic exercises, qigong, some tips mentioned by Soaring Eagle, prayed to God. None of them worked. The only method I didn’t try extensively were kegels. Initially tried a normal + reverse kegel routine, then found an article by coincidence on this subreddit about someone who permanently damaged their penis from doing kegels. Immediately stopped, thank you to that person for sharing your experience. It’s as if the universe was looking out for me. Best to avoid such risky methods even if you’re desperate. Currently sleep on my back since it avoids any "accidental physical stimulation" from occurring.
So this nocturnal emission phenomena continued for over a year. Some methods worked better than others, while for some, I wasn’t sure if it was merely the placebo effect. In mid-2019 I came across subliminal videos (finally the good part!) on YouTube. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0W5AB1sGr0) This video explains it more thoroughly, but basically you convert affirmations (sentences like “I am happy/smart/handsome”) into audio using text-to-speech software and reprogram your subconscious mind. Tried a beauty subliminal (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEXaAsm-Iys) as a joke, but the next day I noticed changes in my facial structure. Listened for an hour the first day, which was easy given the music. You have no idea how amazing it feels to know that you can control your reality just by using your mind. Completely magical. Supposedly it works due to the Law of Attraction; you can find out more by reading/watching “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne, and later reading all the books by Neville Goddard. Started using a skin subliminal as well (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqi8Q80pspk and later moved onto https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COxz8hvl14Y ), and now my skin is completely normal. Visited prominent US dermatologists, tried all sorts of acne medicine including Accutane, and even did SR, yet none of them worked. Skin was pretty terrible, and I was glad it got fixed. Took around 4 months of daily listening although it can be shortelonger depending on your belief, blockages, and levels of positivity. There’s a CIA document on holographic universes, astral projection, time travel, and psychic powers if you need scientific validation: https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP96-00788R001700210016-5.pdf
Disclaimer: Although there can be bad subliminal makers, they are very rare, and there has been only 2 of them in the history of the community. Someone named MindPower and Rose subliminals. The vast majority (99%) put positive affirmations. It’s best that you verify by checking all the comments, seeing their subscriber count, general personality, etc, but ultimately there’s no guarantee. The only way to make sure the affirmations are 100% positive and safe are to make them yourself or use a subliminal that blocks negative affirmations.
One thing to note is that physical change (biokinesis; search that term)/spiritual subliminals utilize the prana in your body to a certain extent to make changes. It makes sense since physical change is essentially a psychic poweenergy work. So your SR benefits/aura might temporarily decrease. Hydration is also recommended, and you will notice feeling thirsty. Personally drink 20 glasses of water everyday.
Obviously, my interest now turned towards using subliminals to cure nocturnal emissions. Unfortunately there’s a huge lack of subliminals regarding semen-retention or those targeted towards nocturnal emissions. Initially bought a subliminal using a paid request (you pay a subliminal maker for a specialized subliminal), but it didn’t work that well. Desired to be permanently free of nocturnal emissions, or at least reduce the frequency to once a month. So I decided to make my own subliminal. The affirmations will be posted below, and this is how I eventually cured my nocturnal emissions.
Steps on how to make your own subliminal:
  1. Write all the affirmations in a word document and save it.
  2. Download text-to-speech software like Balabolka and output the audio file in wav format (you want both uncompressed + lossless)
  3. Optional but recommended; download an audio editor like Audacity, and fast-forward the audio as much as possible using the “Change Tempo” effect. Personally I speed the audio to one second and then loop it 1000x. Continue the process as much as possible, but never make the audio length less than 1 second. Some subliminal makers make their subliminals even more powerful by creating multiple audio streams of their affirmations using different voices, merging all the voices together, and speeding them up. It’s called layering. Why super-sped affirmations work better can be somewhat explained by this article (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sensorium/201812/experiments-suggest-humans-can-directly-observe-the-quantum), but science still doesn’t have all the answers. Will take time.
  4. Converting the affirmations to binary code (https://www.rapidtables.com/convert/numbeascii-to-binary.html) is a technique some subliminal makers use. Supposedly it penetrates the subconscious faster.
Affirmations Link: https://www.reddit.com/pureretention/comments/hg0tjb/practicing_sr_since_july_2017_finally_conquered/ (same content; scroll down to the subliminal section and download the affirmations file from the mega link)
Listened to this personal subliminal for 1 hour everyday for an entire month. Still listen just to be safe. Took months of testing and editing affirmations to make it perfect. Experienced massive sexual dreams on certain days, more than normal, and found out that entities could be responsible. Try to avoid this subreddit as well, since reading the posts can trigger memories. More energetically sensitive now, and sometimes there’s a lot of low-vibrational energy. On a side-note, porn cripples your aura and invites negative entities (https://www.awakeningstaryoga.com/blog/expanding-away-from-porn-aura).
Non-subliminal solutions:
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMx69hgYq0s (morphic field)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWK0D1g069I (powerful aura cleanse; Tibetan bowl sounds)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7moRsibNyMA (reiki)
Subliminal solutions (ordered in terms of effectiveness):
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLeubTQv65Q
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvyPscRD1ss
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTmnrFzR0_Q (for spells, curses, black magic, etc)
  4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (last resort)
The entire channel is a gem; these were some of the best. Have used them for a few months and feel much lighter and peaceful; experienced only headaches due to subconscious absorbing the affirmations, but zero negative effects.
Advice: Remember to immediately download any subliminal video you find that is useful in wav format (https://www.savethevideo.com/download). Subliminal channels are sometimes deleted by YouTube (spam filter) or the creators themselves.
Waited 3 whole months before deciding to make a Reddit post to make sure the method was 100% foolproof. Remember many people offering solutions in the past, yet 1 month later they would have another wd/nocturnal emission.
The first month there was a lot of fear. Will I have a wet dream/nocturnal emission tonight? Was so traumatized it was difficult getting to sleep every night. After the 2nd month, I experimented with sleeping on my stomach and eating/drinking before bed. Nothing happened. Stopped recently to stay careful.
After 2 years of suffering, this is a method that has worked. Try and see for yourself.

Present day:
How do you feel now? Some days it’s meh (due to flatline) like today; on other days I feel divine. No idea why flatline still occurs. Have regained all the benefits, feel love and happiness all the time. Experience intense states of bliss in meditation more frequently, although it’s just a distraction.
Religiously/Spiritually I’ve moved from Christianity to Buddhism/Advaita Vedanta/parts of New Age. Found them more practical and useful in life. Was inspired to aim for spiritual enlightenment after reading “The 3 pillars of Zen” by Philip Kapleau. Read it, it might change your life.
Have attended a number of meditation retreats now, along with 10-day ones. Everyone reading this post should try it. Understood how much our mental programming defined us, and that we aren’t are thoughts. Our childhood traumas define so much of our habitual reactions. Realized its okay to feel bored rather than chasing after constant stimulation.
Even attended a Jhana retreat, which is exclusive for people who have attended prior retreats. Entered intense states of meditative absorption, understood the permeability/impermanence of reality, and had all sorts of mystical experiences. Experienced past lives; can confirm my mind did not make it up, since it’s an experience you can constantly replicate using the same methods. Before attempting such methods, you need to have the ability to sit down and meditate continuously for at least 3 hours. If you live in the US, attend IMS (Insight Meditation Society) or any prominent Vipassana/Theravada related retreat. Zen is a valid form of enlightenment, but it personally felt unstructured.
Gave up music, took time since I was convinced it was needed for creativity. Instead, it was just a substitute source of dopamine and a way to avoid my emotions. Have much less brain fog after quitting. Only communicate using regular phone calls these days, which no one uses, and Snapchat/WhatsApp for texting. Avoid stories, waste of time. Instagram/TwitteFacebook are a waste of time unless you are using it for business purposes. The only social media you really need is LinkedIn.
Women: You’ll learn more about them by reading romantic novels, Korean mangas, and watching Kdramas then reading all that seduction/red pill stuff. Focus on general charisma (men and women) instead of a specific gender. Read “The Charisma Myth” by Olivia Fox Cabane; it’s the most practical book on social skills I have ever read, and possibly the most life-changing as well. Teaches you self-awareness, applies Buddhist psychology to social interaction. Used to train executives in Google, read it now (and do all the exercises). The bibliography sent me on a rabbit hole that made me read ton of books on psychotherapy, meditation, mindfulness, and Buddhism; this was before SR. Inspired me to practice meditation, although the habit only became regular after SR.
Read books such as Crucial Conversations by Al Switzer, Difficult Conversations by Douglas Stone, How to Talk so Kids will Listen by Adele Faber (works very well in general since even adults have childhood programming, and can act like children), Never Split the Difference by Chris Voss (FBI's chief international hostage and kidnapping negotiator from 2003 to 2007), Getting More by Stuart Diamond (trains negotiators at Google), and Pitch Anything by Oren Klaff (more theoretical but useful). Also read The Definitive Book of Body Language by Allan Pease and What Every Body is Saying by Joe Navarro. These are all books that will greatly improve your human interactions and contain limited fluff. Have re-read all of these books in difficult times, and they have never let me down. You should read it as well. Even if you become a monk, there’s lots of social infighting even in monasteries. Highly-developed social skills are invaluable whenever you are dealing with individuals. Read “How to make friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie once in a while, since most forget to apply his “basic” advice. Learned a lot about oral presentations by watching Alan Shore on Boston Legal (TV show).
Current position in life? Studying for a bachelor’s degree. My family is financially well-off, and my father is paying for my college tuition and dorm. Scholarships aren’t available for all income levels. Although I come from “privilege”, the above information can help anyone regardless of their financial position. We live in an era where information is accessible to all social classes, so excuses aren’t that relevant. If you’re practicing SR, you are already 20 steps closer to success. The tips above can be applied for free as long as you have a computesmartphone. Read books starting from today, knowledge is a source of power. People spend so much time reading the news, scrolling social media feeds, reacting to comments, chatting about useless things with friends, binging shows on Netflix, browsing YouTube/Reddit, that time quietly passes by. Time is the most valuable commodity you have; don’t waste such a limited resource on things that will contribute nothing towards your purpose in life. Once it’s spent, you can never get it back.
Personally, I schedule the next day before going to bed. Leisure, Reading, Schoolwork, Meditation, everything is mapped out perfectly. Try to eliminate habits that just waste time and stick to your schedule perfectly (working on it myself). If you feel tired after work/studying, take a nap or meditate instead of receiving even more stimulation from videogames, YouTube, or other artificial dopamine sources. Try NoSurf.

Basic Booklist:

Spirituality:
  1. The End of Your World by Adyashanti (fantastic writer; must-read if you have had an awakening experience or believe you are "enlightened")
  2. How to Attain Enlightenment -> The Essence of Enlightenment by James Swartz (best introduction to Advaita Vedanta I have read so far)
  3. I am That by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj
  4. In the Buddha's Words by Bhikkhu Bodhi (best introduction to Buddhist scripture)
  5. Why Buddhism is True by Robert Wright (secular perspective but informative; his previous book The Moral Animal is a good introduction to evolutionary psychology. Read this first if you are non-spiritual)
  6. Wisdom Wise and Deep by Shaila Catherine (comprehensive introduction by one of the best Jhana teachers in the US)
  7. Manual of Insight by Mahasi Sayadaw
  8. Emptiness: A Practical Guide by Guy Armstrong (good introduction to the Buddhist version of reality)
  9. Books by Loch Kelly (practical guide to non-dual meditation practices within Buddhism; The Little Book of Being by Diana Winston may be a better introduction)
  10. Seeing that Frees by Rob Burbea (really advanced but profound)
  11. http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/2007/03/thusnesss-six-stages-of-experience.html (Buddhism > Advaita)
  12. Books by Robert Bruce such as Psychic Self-Defence and Energy Work
  13. Psychic Witch by Mat Auryn
  14. Dream Yoga by Andrew Holecek (amazing/practical book on lucid dreaming -> dream yoga)
  15. Autobiography of a Yogi
  16. The Practice of Brahmacharya by Swami Sivananda and Soaring Eagle (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/) if you haven’t read already
  17. Xunzi trans. by Eric Hutton (final evolution of Confucianism)
Novels (use translators mentioned):
http://gen.lib.rus.ec/fiction/? for foreign literature

  1. Musashi by Eiji Yoshikawa (Taiko is decent as well, but this one was a masterpiece)
  2. Romance of the Three Kingdoms trans. Moss Roberts
  3. The Dream of the Red Chamber trans. David Hawkes (read it in the summer of 2017, profound but not all may see the deeper meaning)
  4. The Nine Cloud Dream trans. Heinz Insu Fenkl
  5. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand (Inspirational for Entrepreneurs, however don’t start adopting this book as economic philosophy. It’s just a novel!)
  6. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho (read now if you are experiencing an existential crisis)
  7. Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment + The Brothers Karamazov (optional reading; prefer Pevear translation)
  8. Perry Mason and Sherlock Holmes Series (pleasure reading but not useless)
Psychotherapy (never visited a therapist, but found these useful):
  1. Getting Past Your Past by Francine Shapiro (by the founder of EMDR, best practical book on trauma and exercises to resolve it)
  2. Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving (another immensely practical book on recovering from trauma)
  3. Breaking the Cycle by George Collins (best practical workbook on sexual addiction I have read; all should read)
  4. Get out of your mind and into your life by Steven Hayes (Was mentioned in the charisma myth booklist; take control of your thoughts and mind by the founder of ACT)
  5. Mindful Compassion by Paul Gilbert and Choden (prominent researcher on compassion applied to therapy; part one can be boring, but part two on practical exercises is invaluable)
  6. Feeling Book by David Burns (rightfully a classic book on therapy and CBT; read if you are suffering from depression)
  7. Healing Development Trauma by Laurence Heller (best book on the impact of childhood/development trauma but meant for therapists, might explain why we use addiction to cope from childhood memories; google ACE study as well)
  8. The Boy who was raised as a Dog by Bruce Perry (stories about children experiencing trauma. Increases empathy for yourself and others; you realize how childhood trauma affects how a lot of people think and behave)
  9. Whole Again: Healing Your Heart and Rediscovering Your True Self After Toxic Relationships and Emotional Abuse by Jackson MacKenzie (fantastic book on recovering from relationship abuse. Many of us have emotional baggage that fuels coping and addiction loops. Read Healing from Hidden Abuse by Shannon Thomas as well.)
  10. Self-Compassion by Kristen Neff (optional reading, but complimentary)
For biographies, read those of presidents and important leaders. Also about famous/successful individuals. Read all of Ron Chernow’s books. Abuse the Amazon Search Engine and look through their categories. Reading biographies can fundamentally enhance your worldview so you realize that real-life issues are much more nuanced and gray rather than black and white. Also shows how successful people deal with difficult crises and their perspective on life. Especially for public policy. If a President implements an economic policy that has short-term gains, but long-term loss, he has a greater chance of being re-elected. However, short-term loss in favor of long-term gain is the correct policy. Employ critical-thinking! Avoid cable news even if you need to stay informed. Don’t even have a television in my house. Unnecessary. Just read 2 – 3 reputable news sources for 20 minutes max. Sometimes I even avoid the news since there’s too much negativity.
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1unyph/a_tantric_perspective_on_the_use_of_sexual_energy/ (tantric meditation/sexual transmutation technique that actually works; you are supposed to do it for 1 hour. Optional.)
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/2zn8ev/grounding_201_two_effective_quick_methods/ (energetic protection + grounding method after doing the tantric meditation)
Avoid learning Mantak Chia’s techniques from a book, since some have suffered side-effects to their energetic/biological body. For NEO, Tibetan buddhists practice meditation for 13 years before attempting it (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karmamudr%C4%81). Not easy. Not sure about women, since SR streak is more important. Don’t pick a partner to fulfill some kind of emotional void, or due to societal programming where women are held to be the ultimate goal. Spiritual Enlightenment is the ultimate goal now, but even enlightened people need money for food and shelter.
Youtubers I follow are Graham Stephan, Ryan Serhant, Rupert Spira, and https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUX1V5UNWP1RUkhLewe77ZQ (cured women objectification for me; wholesome content) although mostly I avoid the website. Easy to loose track of time.
Avoid smoking, alcohol, recreational drug use (https://www.elitedaily.com/wellness/drugs-alcohol-aura-damage/1743959), casual sex (https://mywakingpath.wordpress.com/tag/aura/; sensitive images but useful), and fast food. Budget your money, and learn how to save as much as possible.
Hope everyone reading this post experiences their definition of success and leads a purposeful life. Will end it by stating two quotes that have inspired and guided me:
“You yourself have to change first, or nothing will change for you!”
― Hideaki Sorachi
“It is not important to be better than someone else, but to be better than you were yesterday.”
― Jigoro Kano (Founder of Judo)

Update 1: Added the audio file as well to the mega link
Update 2: https://starseedsunited.com/negative-entities-and-psychic-attacks (basic article on entities)
Some solutions are posted above. Updated* daily routine:
  1. https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1xyp5k/a_simple_and_universal_white_light_protection/ (basic psychic self-defence)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (at least once everyday; cures sexual dreams and flushes all entities)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLeubTQv65Q (best shielding subliminal so far; general protection. Listen at least once everyday)
Note: Will continuously update this post based on further clarification. Close to 40,000 character word limit.
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2020.06.29 09:07 RisingSun7799 Practicing SR since July 2017; currently have a 3+ month streak

2 accounts got shadowbanned for uploading this post. Spam filter kept on removing it this post. Messaged the moderators, but received no answer. Removed many links, so check post history for full version.

First time making a Reddit post. Estimated Reading Time: 15 minutes
Brief summary of post:
  1. History of Journey
  2. Using Subliminals (affirmations converted into audio) to reprogram the subconscious, overcome nocturnal emissions, and turbo-charge the Law of Attraction
  3. Experience from meditation retreats
  4. Massive booklist covering psychotherapy, spirituality, and general books such as negotiating and advanced social skills
  5. Fundamental shifts that occurred
  6. Experiences with semen-retention benefits
  7. How I overcame and conquered negative entities
  8. Tantric meditation method that actually works with zero side effects
  9. Experience on speaking Japanese for 1 full hour with native speakers without notes after 3 months of learning

Terminology:
Wet dream/WD – sexual dream causing semen emission while sleeping
Nocturnal Emission/NE – semen emission occurring while sleeping even without dreaming
Semen-retention/SR streak – avoiding porn, masturbation, and ejaculation whether conscious or unconscious
Nofap Hardmode – avoiding porn, masturbation, and conscious ejaculation. Unconscious ejaculation/WD is considered fine.

As the title suggests, my current streak started in the middle of June 2017. Haven’t watched any porn or masturbated in 3 years. Experienced almost all the benefits such as massive attraction (men, women, children), an aura/energy surrounding me, enhanced charisma, less need for sleep, insane levels of energy, drive, and motivation, zero anxiety or fear, massive confidence occasionally bordering on arrogance, increased manifestation/LOA, people admiring/respecting me for no reason, online attraction, less procrastination, better athletic performance, greater creativity/intelligence, the desire to live a purposeful life, greater emphasis on spirituality, and much much more. Could probably write several posts just on the benefits themselves. Only thing that didn’t improve was my skin, which was later fixed using subliminals.
It’s been a long journey, so I’ll start with background information, and later elaborate on how I managed to go from nocturnal emissions every 5 days (avg) to having a perfect SR streak for 3 months.
Used to watch anime which led to hentai (2013), and eventually western/japanese porn. Don’t even bother to search these terms on Google. It’s not worth it. Thankfully, those days are long behind me. As a side-note, I discovered the nofap/semen-retention subreddit in November 2017. Didn’t even know about SR before that.
I was raised a Catholic in a fairly religious family. Always started various streaks, and eventually broke them due to boredom/emotional coping/curiosity about new videos. Thankfully, I got good grades, read books, and was interested in self-development, but all that time spent on porn was a complete waste. Assuming I spent at least 2 hours everyday for 4 years (1460 days), it amounts to 122 complete days or around 4 months in total. It’s pretty sad on reflection, but at least the experience is now absorbed, and I can write this post.
On June 2017, after summer break started and final exams were over, I decided to permanently quit this habit. Downloaded an application called Cold Turkey and completely blocked all websites I used to visit. Now use Leechblock, which is available on most browsers (also use it to block/restrict access to non-NSFW websites which impair productivity like ESPN). Started 30 minutes of daily meditation (mindfulness + metta). Still continue the habits to this day, although the length is increased to 1 hour. Read Mindfulness in Plain English by Bhante Gunaratana and Lovingkindness by Sharon Salzberg for instructions. Have re-read these books multiple times.
Mindfulness will allow you to be self-aware of your mental conditioning, while metta (feeling compassion for yourself, a friend, neutral person, and enemy) can remove thoughts of lust and fundamentally alter your mental programming. Compassion is a very powerful exercise. Read “The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion by Christopher Germer” while you’re at it and learn tonglen. All of these books contain zero fluff, and are invaluable reads.
Started drinking 16 glasses of water (thought it would help skin, but helped in other ways), and doing 100 pushups + 100 sit-ups everyday. Increased it to 200 pushups + 200 sit-ups after 1 month. After 2 months, I made a decent amount of gains (SR helps), and people started asking me workout tips and what gym I go to. Had a Kindle Paperwhite, which is frankly one of my most valued possessions. Still works perfectly fine after 5 years, and costs only $130. Buy one now. Read a lot of books mostly consisting of biographies/spirituality/practical social skills/800+ page novels for around 6 hours per day. Still try to read for at least 15 minutes/1 chapter even when extremely busy. Will post a small booklist at the end of this post.
You can upload books to it for free if you lack money. Visit (gen.lib.rus.ec), download the ebook in epub/mobi format, open it with Calibre (https://calibre-ebook.com/), and send it to Kindle using USB. Knowledge is an investment that produces continuous returns. Warren Buffett spends 80% of his time just reading! and takes action based on that knowledge.
Even managed to have the motivation to learn Japanese by joining a foreign language exchange website. People, especially women, accepted and sent a lot of invitations to have a conversation; didn’t realize online attraction was due to SR back then. None of us showed our faces, so my physical appearance had nothing to do with it. From experience, the best way to learn a language was to make a phrase sheet with the most common phrases/questions, such as “okay”, “that’s awesome”, “what is that word in English/Japanese?” Basically a human AI bot. Don’t waste time trying to learn how to write the alphabet, although my primary purpose was to learn how to speak. Google Translate is good enough to understand the pronunciation.
I learned Japanese primarily by watching Terrace House. First watched the episode with subtitles, then re-watched it without, while simultaneously writing all the connectives/conversational phrases. You can try unique methods to remember, but brute-force memorization/review worked the best. Never tried Anki since it was cumbersome to use.
For the accent, the best way is to watch Japanese people trying to speak English, and try to mirror their accent as much as possible. It honestly helps. After 3 months, I could have a full 1 hour conversation in Japanese with a native speaker without looking at any notes. I wasn’t “fluent” (still stuttered and made mistakes), but it was a huge amount of progress for starting from scratch. Eventually after 6 months, I gave up practicing/speaking the language. I was mainly trying to fulfill a childhood fantasy, and I’m glad I tried since I learned a lot from it and got to talk with interesting people. But in reality, I stopped watching anime, and honestly never needed to speak Japanese in real-life. Now I barely remember any of the words, except a few basic phrases. Could probably last 30 seconds of full conversation at best.
So, everything was going great until December 2017. During this time period, I probably had wet dreams/nocturnal emissions every 1 – 2 months. Barely felt much difference since there was a decent time interval between emissions. Drank 2 glasses of water everyday before bed, slept on my stomach, and ate spicy food (practices that cause nocturnal emissions), but was perfectly fine. However in December I started having emissions every 2 weeks. Initially didn’t care about it. In January it started happening every 1 week. Nothing really changed in my life during this time to cause emissions to increase. Then it started happening every 5 days, every 3 days, sometimes even 2 days in a row!
Most of you will have no idea how terrible it feels to be on top of the world, and then suddenly crash down. The difference between living life with/without SR benefits is night and day. Even after sleeping 10 hours, I used to feel completely exhausted. People ignored me, or worse started “joking” around me. Complete disrespect by friends, family, and acquaintances. No energy/motivation to do anything. Constant brain fog, could barely concentrate. Felt even worse than my porn days when I ejaculated everyday. Voice completely shot, started feeling anxious about oral presentations for no reason, when I always excelled. Felt like my soul was dying. Those were really dark times. People started saying I “changed”, and started pointing out and constantly magnifying my flaws. It’s strange how people exaggerate our skills/talents on SR, while they completely ignore them post WD/ejaculation, and focus only on your flaws/mistakes. It makes you lose trust in everyone around you, as if all of them are energy vampires who only like you due to SR.
I grew desperate. During this whole time I meditated, practiced no lust/no arousal as best as possible since July 2017, yet emissions increased massively in frequency. Some occurred due to sexual dreams, but most were nocturnal emissions. Thought I had a UTI at first, and went to a general practitioner. He didn’t seem very reliable, so I went to a prominent urologist. Did all sorts of tests, paid a good amount of money, and the doctor said everything was fine. Having nocturnal emissions every 5 days was perfectly normal at my age. Encouraged me to masturbate regularly if it became an inconvenience :)
So medical science obviously failed. Started following all the tips/methods in this subreddit, and believe me I tried almost everything no matter how uncomfortable or time-consuming. Omad, avoid food/water before bed, vegetarianism, tantric meditation, different diets, various sleeping positions, no/increased meditation before bed, no/more exercise, yogic exercises, qigong, some tips mentioned by Soaring Eagle, prayed to God. None of them worked. The only method I didn’t try extensively were kegels. Initially tried a normal + reverse kegel routine, then found an article by coincidence on this subreddit about someone who permanently damaged their penis from doing kegels. Immediately stopped, thank you to that person for sharing your experience. It’s as if the universe was looking out for me. Best to avoid such risky methods even if you’re desperate. Currently sleep on my back since it avoids any "accidental physical stimulation" from occurring.
So this nocturnal emission phenomena continued for over a year. Some methods worked better than others, while for some, I wasn’t sure if it was merely the placebo effect. In mid-2019 I came across subliminal videos (finally the good part!) on YouTube. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0W5AB1sGr0) This video explains it more thoroughly, but basically you convert affirmations (sentences like “I am happy/smart/handsome”) into audio using text-to-speech software and reprogram your subconscious mind. Tried a beauty subliminal (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEXaAsm-Iys) as a joke, but the next day I noticed changes in my facial structure. Listened for an hour the first day, which was easy given the music. You have no idea how amazing it feels to know that you can control your reality just by using your mind. Completely magical. Supposedly it works due to the Law of Attraction; you can find out more by reading/watching “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne, and later reading all the books by Neville Goddard. Started using a skin subliminal as well (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqi8Q80pspk and later moved onto https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COxz8hvl14Y ), and now my skin is completely normal. Visited prominent US dermatologists, tried all sorts of acne medicine including Accutane, and even did SR, yet none of them worked. Skin was pretty terrible, and I was glad it got fixed. Took around 4 months of daily listening although it can be shortelonger depending on your belief, blockages, and levels of positivity. There’s a CIA document on holographic universes, astral projection, time travel, and psychic powers if you need scientific validation: https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP96-00788R001700210016-5.pdf
Disclaimer: Although there can be bad subliminal makers, they are very rare, and there has been only 2 of them in the history of the community. Someone named MindPower and Rose subliminals. The vast majority (99%) put positive affirmations. It’s best that you verify by checking all the comments, seeing their subscriber count, general personality, etc, but ultimately there’s no guarantee. The only way to make sure the affirmations are 100% positive and safe are to make them yourself or use a subliminal that blocks negative affirmations.
One thing to note is that physical change (biokinesis; search that term)/spiritual subliminals utilize the prana in your body to a certain extent to make changes. It makes sense since physical change is essentially a psychic poweenergy work. So your SR benefits/aura might temporarily decrease. Hydration is also recommended, and you will notice feeling thirsty. Personally drink 20 glasses of water everyday.
Obviously, my interest now turned towards using subliminals to cure nocturnal emissions. Unfortunately there’s a huge lack of subliminals regarding semen-retention or those targeted towards nocturnal emissions. Initially bought a subliminal using a paid request (you pay a subliminal maker for a specialized subliminal), but it didn’t work that well. Desired to be permanently free of nocturnal emissions, or at least reduce the frequency to once a month. So I decided to make my own subliminal. The affirmations will be posted below, and this is how I eventually cured my nocturnal emissions.
Steps on how to make your own subliminal:
  1. Write all the affirmations in a word document and save it.
  2. Download text-to-speech software like Balabolka and output the audio file in wav format (you want both uncompressed + lossless)
  3. Optional but recommended; download an audio editor like Audacity, and fast-forward the audio as much as possible using the “Change Tempo” effect. Personally I speed the audio to one second and then loop it 1000x. Continue the process as much as possible, but never make the audio length less than 1 second. Some subliminal makers make their subliminals even more powerful by creating multiple audio streams of their affirmations using different voices, merging all the voices together, and speeding them up. It’s called layering. Why super-sped affirmations work better can be somewhat explained by this article (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sensorium/201812/experiments-suggest-humans-can-directly-observe-the-quantum), but science still doesn’t have all the answers. Will take time.
  4. Converting the affirmations to binary code (https://www.rapidtables.com/convert/numbeascii-to-binary.html) is a technique some subliminal makers use. Supposedly it penetrates the subconscious faster.
Affirmations Link: https://www.reddit.com/pureretention/comments/hg0tjb/practicing_sr_since_july_2017_finally_conquered/ (same content; scroll down to the subliminal section and download the affirmations file from the mega link)
Listened to this personal subliminal for 1 hour everyday for an entire month. Still listen just to be safe. Took months of testing and editing affirmations to make it perfect. Experienced massive sexual dreams on certain days, more than normal, and found out that entities could be responsible. Try to avoid this subreddit as well, since reading the posts can trigger memories. More energetically sensitive now, and sometimes there’s a lot of low-vibrational energy. On a side-note, porn cripples your aura and invites negative entities (https://www.awakeningstaryoga.com/blog/expanding-away-from-porn-aura).
Non-subliminal solutions:
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lMx69hgYq0s (morphic field)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWK0D1g069I (powerful aura cleanse; Tibetan bowl sounds)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7moRsibNyMA (reiki)
Subliminal solutions (ordered in terms of effectiveness):
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvyPscRD1ss
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTmnrFzR0_Q (for spells, curses, black magic, etc)
  4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (last resort)
The entire channel is a gem; these were some of the best. Have used them for a few months and feel much lighter and peaceful; experienced only headaches due to subconscious absorbing the affirmations, but zero negative effects.
Advice: Remember to immediately download any subliminal video you find that is useful in wav format (https://www.savethevideo.com/download). Subliminal channels are sometimes deleted by YouTube (spam filter) or the creators themselves.
Waited 3 whole months before deciding to make a Reddit post to make sure the method was 100% foolproof. Remember many people offering solutions in the past, yet 1 month later they would have another wd/nocturnal emission.
The first month there was a lot of fear. Will I have a wet dream/nocturnal emission tonight? Was so traumatized it was difficult getting to sleep every night. After the 2nd month, I experimented with sleeping on my stomach and eating/drinking before bed. Nothing happened. Stopped recently to stay careful.
After 2 years of suffering, this is a method that has worked. Try and see for yourself.
Present day:
How do you feel now? Some days it’s meh (due to flatline) like today; on other days I feel divine. No idea why flatline still occurs. Have regained all the benefits, feel love and happiness all the time. Experience intense states of bliss in meditation more frequently, although it’s just a distraction.
Religiously/Spiritually I’ve moved from Christianity to Buddhism/Advaita Vedanta/parts of New Age. Found them more practical and useful in life. Was inspired to aim for spiritual enlightenment after reading “The 3 pillars of Zen” by Philip Kapleau. Read it, it might change your life.
Have attended a number of meditation retreats now, along with 10-day ones. Everyone reading this post should try it. Understood how much our mental programming defined us, and that we aren’t are thoughts. Our childhood traumas define so much of our habitual reactions. Realized its okay to feel bored rather than chasing after constant stimulation.
Even attended a Jhana retreat, which is exclusive for people who have attended prior retreats. Entered intense states of meditative absorption, understood the permeability/impermanence of reality, and had all sorts of mystical experiences. Experienced past lives; can confirm my mind did not make it up, since it’s an experience you can constantly replicate using the same methods. Before attempting such methods, you need to have the ability to sit down and meditate continuously for at least 3 hours. If you live in the US, attend IMS (Insight Meditation Society) or any prominent Vipassana/Theravada related retreat. Zen is a valid form of enlightenment, but it personally felt unstructured.
Gave up music, took time since I was convinced it was needed for creativity. Instead, it was just a substitute source of dopamine and a way to avoid my emotions. Have much less brain fog after quitting. Only communicate using regular phone calls these days, which no one uses, and Snapchat/WhatsApp for texting. Avoid stories, waste of time. Instagram/TwitteFacebook are a waste of time unless you are using it for business purposes. The only social media you really need is LinkedIn.
Women: You’ll learn more about them by reading romantic novels, Korean mangas, and watching Kdramas then reading all that seduction/red pill stuff. Focus on general charisma (men and women) instead of a specific gender. Read “The Charisma Myth” by Olivia Fox Cabane; it’s the most practical book on social skills I have ever read, and possibly the most life-changing as well. Teaches you self-awareness, applies Buddhist psychology to social interaction. Used to train executives in Google, read it now (and do all the exercises). The bibliography sent me on a rabbit hole that made me read ton of books on psychotherapy, meditation, mindfulness, and Buddhism; this was before SR. Inspired me to practice meditation, although the habit only became regular after SR.
Read books such as Crucial Conversations by Al Switzer, Difficult Conversations by Douglas Stone, How to Talk so Kids will Listen by Adele Faber (works very well in general since even adults have childhood programming, and can act like children), Never Split the Difference by Chris Voss (FBI's chief international hostage and kidnapping negotiator from 2003 to 2007), Getting More by Stuart Diamond (trains negotiators at Google), and Pitch Anything by Oren Klaff (more theoretical but useful). Also read The Definitive Book of Body Language by Allan Pease and What Every Body is Saying by Joe Navarro. These are all books that will greatly improve your human interactions and contain limited fluff. Have re-read all of these books in difficult times, and they have never let me down. You should read it as well. Even if you become a monk, there’s lots of social infighting even in monasteries. Highly-developed social skills are invaluable whenever you are dealing with individuals. Read “How to make friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie once in a while, since most forget to apply his “basic” advice. Learned a lot about oral presentations by watching Alan Shore on Boston Legal (TV show).
Current position in life? Studying for a bachelor’s degree. My family is financially well-off, and my father is paying for my college tuition and dorm. Scholarships aren’t available for all income levels. Although I come from “privilege”, the above information can help anyone regardless of their financial position. We live in an era where information is accessible to all social classes, so excuses aren’t that relevant. If you’re practicing SR, you are already 20 steps closer to success. The tips above can be applied for free as long as you have a computesmartphone. Read books starting from today, knowledge is a source of power. People spend so much time reading the news, scrolling social media feeds, reacting to comments, chatting about useless things with friends, binging shows on Netflix, browsing YouTube/Reddit, that time quietly passes by. Time is the most valuable commodity you have; don’t waste such a limited resource on things that will contribute nothing towards your purpose in life. Once it’s spent, you can never get it back.
Personally, I schedule the next day before going to bed. Leisure, Reading, Schoolwork, Meditation, everything is mapped out perfectly. Try to eliminate habits that just waste time and stick to your schedule perfectly (working on it myself). If you feel tired after work/studying, take a nap or meditate instead of receiving even more stimulation from videogames, YouTube, or other artificial dopamine sources. Try NoSurf.

Basic Booklist:

Spirituality:
  1. The End of Your World by Adyashanti (fantastic writer; must-read if you have had an awakening experience or believe you are "enlightened")
  2. How to Attain Enlightenment -> The Essence of Enlightenment by James Swartz (best introduction to Advaita Vedanta I have read so far)
  3. I am That by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj
  4. In the Buddha's Words by Bhikkhu Bodhi (best introduction to Buddhist scripture)
  5. Why Buddhism is True by Robert Wright (secular perspective but informative; his previous book The Moral Animal is a good introduction to evolutionary psychology. Read this first if you are non-spiritual)
  6. Wisdom Wise and Deep by Shaila Catherine (comprehensive introduction by one of the best Jhana teachers in the US)
  7. Manual of Insight by Mahasi Sayadaw
  8. Emptiness: A Practical Guide by Guy Armstrong (good introduction to the Buddhist version of reality)
  9. Books by Loch Kelly (practical guide to non-dual meditation practices within Buddhism; The Little Book of Being by Diana Winston may be a better introduction)
  10. Seeing that Frees by Rob Burbea (really advanced but profound)
  11. http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/2007/03/thusnesss-six-stages-of-experience.html (Buddhism > Advaita)
  12. Books by Robert Bruce such as Psychic Self-Defence and Energy Work
  13. Psychic Witch by Mat Auryn
  14. Dream Yoga by Andrew Holecek (amazing/practical book on lucid dreaming -> dream yoga)
  15. Autobiography of a Yogi
  16. The Practice of Brahmacharya by Swami Sivananda and Soaring Eagle (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/) if you haven’t read already
  17. Xunzi trans. by Eric Hutton (final evolution of Confucianism)
Novels (use translators mentioned):
http://gen.lib.rus.ec/fiction/? for foreign literature

  1. Musashi by Eiji Yoshikawa (Taiko is decent as well, but this one was a masterpiece)
  2. Romance of the Three Kingdoms trans. Moss Roberts
  3. The Dream of the Red Chamber trans. David Hawkes (read it in the summer of 2017, profound but not all may see the deeper meaning)
  4. The Nine Cloud Dream trans. Heinz Insu Fenkl
  5. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand (Inspirational for Entrepreneurs, however don’t start adopting this book as economic philosophy. It’s just a novel!)
  6. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho (read now if you are experiencing an existential crisis)
  7. Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment + The Brothers Karamazov (optional reading; prefer Pevear translation)
  8. Perry Mason and Sherlock Holmes Series (pleasure reading but not useless)
Psychotherapy (never visited a therapist, but found these useful):
  1. Getting Past Your Past by Francine Shapiro (by the founder of EMDR, best practical book on trauma and exercises to resolve it)
  2. Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving (another immensely practical book on recovering from trauma)
  3. Breaking the Cycle by George Collins (best practical workbook on sexual addiction I have read; all should read)
  4. Get out of your mind and into your life by Steven Hayes (Was mentioned in the charisma myth booklist; take control of your thoughts and mind by the founder of ACT)
  5. Mindful Compassion by Paul Gilbert and Choden (prominent researcher on compassion applied to therapy; part one can be boring, but part two on practical exercises is invaluable)
  6. Feeling Book by David Burns (rightfully a classic book on therapy and CBT; read if you are suffering from depression)
  7. Healing Development Trauma by Laurence Heller (best book on the impact of childhood/development trauma but meant for therapists, might explain why we use addiction to cope from childhood memories; google ACE study as well)
  8. The Boy who was raised as a Dog by Bruce Perry (stories about children experiencing trauma. Increases empathy for yourself and others; you realize how childhood trauma affects how a lot of people think and behave)
  9. Whole Again: Healing Your Heart and Rediscovering Your True Self After Toxic Relationships and Emotional Abuse by Jackson MacKenzie (fantastic book on recovering from relationship abuse. Many of us have emotional baggage that fuels coping and addiction loops. Read Healing from Hidden Abuse by Shannon Thomas as well.)
  10. Self-Compassion by Kristen Neff (optional reading, but complimentary)
For biographies, read those of presidents and important leaders. Also about famous/successful individuals. Read all of Ron Chernow’s books. Abuse the Amazon Search Engine and look through their categories. Reading biographies can fundamentally enhance your worldview so you realize that real-life issues are much more nuanced and gray rather than black and white. Also shows how successful people deal with difficult crises and their perspective on life. Especially for public policy. If a President implements an economic policy that has short-term gains, but long-term loss, he has a greater chance of being re-elected. However, short-term loss in favor of long-term gain is the correct policy. Employ critical-thinking! Avoid cable news even if you need to stay informed. Don’t even have a television in my house. Unnecessary. Just read 2 – 3 reputable news sources for 20 minutes max. Sometimes I even avoid the news since there’s too much negativity.
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1unyph/a_tantric_perspective_on_the_use_of_sexual_energy/ (tantric meditation technique that actually works; you are supposed to do it for 1 hour. Optional.)
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/2zn8ev/grounding_201_two_effective_quick_methods/ (energetic protection + grounding method after doing the tantric meditation)
Avoid learning Mantak Chia’s techniques from a book, since some have suffered side-effects to their energetic/biological body. For NEO, Tibetan buddhists practice meditation for 13 years before attempting it (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Karmamudr%C4%81). Not easy. Not sure about women, since SR streak is more important. Don’t pick a partner to fulfill some kind of emotional void, or due to societal programming where women are held to be the ultimate goal. Spiritual Enlightenment is the ultimate goal now, but even enlightened people need money for food and shelter.
Youtubers I follow are Graham Stephan, Ryan Serhant, Rupert Spira, and https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUX1V5UNWP1RUkhLewe77ZQ (cured women objectification for me; wholesome content) although mostly I avoid the website. Easy to loose track of time.
Avoid smoking, alcohol, recreational drug use (https://www.elitedaily.com/wellness/drugs-alcohol-aura-damage/1743959), casual sex (https://mywakingpath.wordpress.com/tag/aura/; sensitive images but useful), and fast food. Budget your money, and learn how to save as much as possible.
Hope everyone reading this post experiences their definition of success and leads a purposeful life. Will end it by stating two quotes that have inspired and guided me:
“You yourself have to change first, or nothing will change for you!”
― Hideaki Sorachi
“It is not important to be better than someone else, but to be better than you were yesterday.”
― Jigoro Kano (Founder of Judo)
Update 1, 2, 3: Added a post summary and the audio as well in the affirmations link
Update 4: https://starseedsunited.com/negative-entities-and-psychic-attacks (basic article on entities)
Some solutions are posted above. Updated* daily routine:
  1. https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1xyp5k/a_simple_and_universal_white_light_protection/ (basic psychic self-defence)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (at least once everyday; cures sexual dreams and flushes all entities)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLeubTQv65Q (best shielding subliminal so far; general protection. Listen at least once everyday)
Note: Will continuously update this post based on further clarification. Close to 40,000 character word limit.
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2020.06.26 06:15 RisingSun7799 Practicing SR since July 2017; finally conquered Nocturnal Emissions for 3 Whole Months using Subliminals

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First time making a Reddit post.
Terminology:
Wet dream/WD – sexual dream causing semen emission while sleeping
Nocturnal Emission/NE – semen emission occurring while sleeping even without dreaming
Semen-retention/SR streak – avoiding porn, masturbation, and ejaculation whether conscious or unconscious
Nofap Hardmode – avoiding porn, masturbation, and conscious ejaculation. Unconscious ejaculation/WD is considered fine.

As the title suggests, my current streak started in the middle of June 2017. Haven’t watched any porn or masturbated in 3 years. Experienced almost all the benefits such as massive attraction (men, women, children), an aura/energy surrounding me, enhanced charisma, less need for sleep, insane levels of energy, drive, and motivation, zero anxiety or fear, massive confidence occasionally bordering on arrogance, increased manifestation/LOA, people admiring/respecting me for no reason, online attraction, less procrastination, better athletic performance, greater creativity/intelligence, the desire to live a purposeful life, greater emphasis on spirituality, and much much more. Could probably write several posts just on the benefits themselves. Only thing that didn’t improve was my skin, which was later fixed using subliminals.
It’s been a long journey, so I’ll start with background information, and later elaborate on how I managed to go from nocturnal emissions every 5 days (avg) to having a perfect SR streak for 3 months.
Used to watch anime which led to hentai (2013), and eventually western/japanese porn. Don’t even bother to search these terms on Google. It’s not worth it. Thankfully, those days are long behind me. As a side-note, I discovered the nofap/semen-retention subreddit in November 2017. Didn’t even know about SR before that.
I was raised a Catholic in a fairly religious family. Always started various streaks, and eventually broke them due to boredom/emotional coping/curiosity about new videos. Thankfully, I got good grades, read books, and was interested in self-development, but all that time spent on porn was a complete waste. Assuming I spent at least 2 hours everyday for 4 years (1460 days), it amounts to 122 complete days or around 4 months in total. It’s pretty sad on reflection, but at least the experience is now absorbed, and I can write this post.
On June 2017, after summer break started and final exams were over, I decided to permanently quit this habit. Downloaded an application called Cold Turkey and completely blocked all websites I used to visit. Now use Leechblock, which is available on most browsers (also use it to block/restrict access to non-NSFW websites which impair productivity like ESPN). Started 30 minutes of daily meditation (mindfulness + metta). Still continue the habits to this day, although the length is increased to 1 hour. Read Mindfulness in Plain English by Bhante Gunaratana and Lovingkindness by Sharon Salzberg for instructions. Have re-read these books multiple times.
Mindfulness will allow you to be self-aware of your mental conditioning, while metta (feeling compassion for yourself, a friend, neutral person, and enemy) can remove thoughts of lust and fundamentally alter your mental programming. Compassion is a very powerful exercise. Read “The Mindful Path to Self-Compassion by Christopher Germer” while you’re at it and learn tonglen. All of these books contain zero fluff, and are invaluable reads.
Started drinking 16 glasses of water (thought it would help skin, but helped in other ways), and doing 100 pushups + 100 sit-ups everyday. Increased it to 200 pushups + 200 sit-ups after 1 month. After 2 months, I made a decent amount of gains (SR helps), and people started asking me workout tips and what gym I go to. Had a Kindle Paperwhite, which is frankly one of my most valued possessions. Still works perfectly fine after 5 years, and costs only $130. Buy one now. Read a lot of books mostly consisting of biographies/spirituality/practical social skills/800+ page novels for around 6 hours per day. Still try to read for at least 15 minutes/1 chapter even when extremely busy. Will post a small booklist at the end of this post.
You can upload books to it for free if you lack money. Visit “gen.lib.rus.ec” without quotes, download the ebook in epub/mobi format, open it with Calibre (https://calibre-ebook.com/), and send it to Kindle using USB. Knowledge is an investment that produces continuous returns. Warren Buffett spends 80% of his time just reading! and takes action based on that knowledge.
Even managed to have the motivation to learn Japanese by joining a foreign language exchange website. People, especially women, accepted and sent a lot of invitations to have a conversation; didn’t realize online attraction was due to SR back then. None of us showed our faces, so my physical appearance had nothing to do with it. From experience, the best way to learn a language was to make a phrase sheet with the most common phrases/questions, such as “okay”, “that’s awesome”, “what is that word in English/Japanese?” Basically a human AI bot. Don’t waste time trying to learn how to write the alphabet, although my primary purpose was to learn how to speak. Google Translate is good enough to understand the pronunciation.
I learned Japanese primarily by watching Terrace House. First watched the episode with subtitles, then re-watched it without, while simultaneously writing all the connectives/conversational phrases. You can try unique methods to remember, but brute-force memorization/review worked the best. Never tried Anki since it was cumbersome to use.
For the accent, the best way is to watch Japanese people trying to speak English, and try to mirror their accent as much as possible. It honestly helps. After 3 months, I could have a full 1 hour conversation in Japanese with a native speaker without looking at any notes. I wasn’t “fluent” (still stuttered and made mistakes), but it was a huge amount of progress for starting from scratch. Eventually after 6 months, I gave up practicing/speaking the language. I was mainly trying to fulfill a childhood fantasy, and I’m glad I tried since I learned a lot from it and got to talk with interesting people. But in reality, I stopped watching anime, and honestly never needed to speak Japanese in real-life. Now I barely remember any of the words, except a few basic phrases. Could probably last 30 seconds of full conversation at best.
So, everything was going great until December 2017. During this time period, I probably had wet dreams/nocturnal emissions every 1 – 2 months. Barely felt much difference since there was a decent time interval between emissions. Drank 2 glasses of water everyday before bed, slept on my stomach, and ate spicy food (practices that cause nocturnal emissions), but was perfectly fine. However in December I started having emissions every 2 weeks. Initially didn’t care about it. In January it started happening every 1 week. Nothing really changed in my life during this time to cause emissions to increase. Then it started happening every 5 days, every 3 days, sometimes even 2 days in a row!
Most of you will have no idea how terrible it feels to be on top of the world, and then suddenly crash down. The difference between living life with/without SR benefits is night and day. Even after sleeping 10 hours, I used to feel completely exhausted. People ignored me, or worse started “joking” around me. Complete disrespect by friends, family, and acquaintances. No energy/motivation to do anything. Constant brain fog, could barely concentrate. Felt even worse than my porn days when I ejaculated everyday. Voice completely shot, started feeling anxious about oral presentations for no reason, when I always excelled. Felt like my soul was dying. Those were really dark times. People started saying I “changed”, and started pointing out and constantly magnifying my flaws. It’s strange how people exaggerate our skills/talents on SR, while they completely ignore them post WD/ejaculation, and focus only on your flaws/mistakes. It makes you lose trust in everyone around you, as if all of them are energy vampires who only like you due to SR.
I grew desperate. During this whole time I meditated, practiced no lust/no arousal as best as possible since July 2017, yet emissions increased massively in frequency. Some occurred due to sexual dreams, but most were nocturnal emissions. Thought I had a UTI at first, and went to a general practitioner. He didn’t seem very reliable, so I went to a prominent urologist. Did all sorts of tests, paid a good amount of money, and the doctor said everything was fine. Having nocturnal emissions every 5 days was perfectly normal at my age. Encouraged me to masturbate regularly if it became an inconvenience :)
So medical science obviously failed. Started following all the tips/methods in this subreddit, and believe me I tried almost everything no matter how uncomfortable or time-consuming. Omad, avoid food/water before bed, vegetarianism, tantric meditation, different diets, various sleeping positions, no/increased meditation before bed, no/more exercise, yogic exercises, qigong, some tips mentioned by Soaring Eagle, prayed to God. None of them worked. The only method I didn’t try extensively were kegels. Initially tried a normal + reverse kegel routine, then found an article by coincidence on this subreddit about someone who permanently damaged their penis from doing kegels. Immediately stopped, thank you to that person for sharing your experience. It’s as if the universe was looking out for me. Best to avoid such risky methods even if you’re desperate. Currently sleep on my back since it avoids any "accidental physical stimulation" from occurring.
So this nocturnal emission phenomena continued for over a year. Some methods worked better than others, while for some, I wasn’t sure if it was merely the placebo effect. In mid-2019 I came across subliminal videos (finally the good part!) on YouTube. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P0W5AB1sGr0) This video explains it more thoroughly, but basically you convert affirmations (sentences like “I am happy/smart/handsome”) into audio using text-to-speech software and reprogram your subconscious mind. Tried a beauty subliminal (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xEXaAsm-Iys) as a joke, but the next day I noticed changes in my facial structure. Listened for an hour the first day, which was easy given the music. You have no idea how amazing it feels to know that you can control your reality just by using your mind. Completely magical. Supposedly it works due to the Law of Attraction; you can find out more by reading/watching “The Secret” by Rhonda Byrne, and later reading all the books by Neville Goddard. Started using a skin subliminal as well (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqi8Q80pspk and later moved onto https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=COxz8hvl14Y ), and now my skin is completely normal. Visited prominent US dermatologists, tried all sorts of acne medicine including Accutane, and even did SR, yet none of them worked. Skin was pretty terrible, and I was glad it got fixed. Took around 4 months of daily listening although it can be shortelonger depending on your belief, blockages, and levels of positivity. There’s a CIA document on holographic universes, astral projection, time travel, and psychic powers if you need scientific validation: https://www.cia.gov/library/readingroom/docs/CIA-RDP96-00788R001700210016-5.pdf
Disclaimer: Although there can be bad subliminal makers, they are very rare, and there has been only 2 of them in the history of the community. Someone named MindPower and Rose subliminals. The vast majority (99%) put positive affirmations. It’s best that you verify by checking all the comments, seeing their subscriber count, general personality, etc, but ultimately there’s no guarantee. The only way to make sure the affirmations are 100% positive and safe are to make them yourself or use a subliminal that blocks negative affirmations.
One thing to note is that physical change (biokinesis; search that term)/spiritual subliminals utilize the prana in your body to a certain extent to make changes. It makes sense since physical change is essentially a psychic poweenergy work. So your SR benefits/aura might temporarily decrease. Hydration is also recommended, and you will notice feeling thirsty. Personally drink 20 glasses of water everyday.
Obviously, my interest now turned towards using subliminals to cure nocturnal emissions. Unfortunately there’s a huge lack of subliminals regarding semen-retention or those targeted towards nocturnal emissions. Initially bought a subliminal using a paid request (you pay a subliminal maker for a specialized subliminal), but it didn’t work that well. Desired to be permanently free of nocturnal emissions, or at least reduce the frequency to once a month. So I decided to make my own subliminal. The affirmations will be posted below, and this is how I eventually cured my nocturnal emissions.
Steps on how to make your own subliminal:
  1. Write all the affirmations in a word document and save it.
  2. Download text-to-speech software like Balabolka (http://www.cross-plus-a.com/balabolka.htm) and output the audio file in wav format (you want both uncompressed + lossless)
  3. Optional but recommended; download an audio editor like Audacity (https://www.audacityteam.org/), and fast-forward the audio as much as possible using the “Change Tempo” effect. Personally I speed the audio to one second and then loop it 1000x. Continue the process as much as possible, but never make the audio length less than 1 second. Some subliminal makers make their subliminals even more powerful by creating multiple audio streams of their affirmations using different voices, merging all the voices together, and speeding them up. It’s called layering. Why super-sped affirmations work better can be somewhat explained by this article (https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/sensorium/201812/experiments-suggest-humans-can-directly-observe-the-quantum), but science still doesn’t have all the answers. Will take time.
  4. Converting the affirmations to binary code (https://www.rapidtables.com/convert/numbeascii-to-binary.html) is a technique some subliminal makers use. Supposedly it penetrates the subconscious faster.
Affirmations + Audio Link: https://mega.nz/foldeWcwhhAia#RmD8e0I3uzjyeDdW22wEHg
Listened to this personal subliminal for 1 hour everyday for an entire month. Still listen just to be safe. Took months of testing and editing affirmations to make it perfect. Experienced massive sexual dreams on certain days, more than normal, and found out that entities could be responsible. Try to avoid this subreddit as well, since reading the posts can trigger memories. More energetically sensitive now, and sometimes there’s a lot of low-vibrational energy. On a side-note, porn cripples your aura and invites negative entities (https://www.awakeningstaryoga.com/blog/expanding-away-from-porn-aura).
Non-subliminal solutions:
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g5-DrYahaSc (morphic field)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EWK0D1g069I (powerful aura cleanse; Tibetan bowl sounds)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7moRsibNyMA (reiki)
Subliminal solutions (ordered in terms of effectiveness):
  1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLeubTQv65Q
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XvyPscRD1ss
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NTmnrFzR0_Q (for spells, curses, black magic, etc)
  4. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (last resort)
The entire channel is a gem; these were some of the best. Have used them for a few months and feel much lighter and peaceful; experienced only headaches due to subconscious absorbing the affirmations, but zero negative effects.
Advice: Remember to immediately download any subliminal video you find that is useful in wav format (https://www.savethevideo.com/download). Subliminal channels are sometimes deleted by YouTube (spam filter) or the creators themselves.
Waited 3 whole months before deciding to make a Reddit post to make sure the method was 100% foolproof. Remember many people offering solutions in the past, yet 1 month later they would have another wd/nocturnal emission.
The first month there was a lot of fear. Will I have a wet dream/nocturnal emission tonight? Was so traumatized it was difficult getting to sleep every night. After the 2nd month, I experimented with sleeping on my stomach and eating/drinking before bed. Nothing happened. Stopped recently to stay careful.
After 2 years of suffering, this is a method that has worked. Try and see for yourself.

Present day:
How do you feel now? Some days it’s meh (due to flatline) like today; on other days I feel divine. No idea why flatline still occurs. Have regained all the benefits, feel love and happiness all the time. Experience intense states of bliss in meditation more frequently, although it’s just a distraction.
Religiously/Spiritually I’ve moved from Christianity to Buddhism/Advaita Vedanta/parts of New Age. Found them more practical and useful in life. Was inspired to aim for spiritual enlightenment after reading “The 3 pillars of Zen” by Philip Kapleau. Read it, it might change your life.
Have attended a number of meditation retreats now, along with 10-day ones. Everyone reading this post should try it. Understood how much our mental programming defined us, and that we aren’t are thoughts. Our childhood traumas define so much of our habitual reactions. Realized its okay to feel bored rather than chasing after constant stimulation.
Even attended a Jhana retreat, which is exclusive for people who have attended prior retreats. Entered intense states of meditative absorption, understood the permeability/impermanence of reality, and had all sorts of mystical experiences. Experienced past lives; can confirm my mind did not make it up, since it’s an experience you can constantly replicate using the same methods. Before attempting such methods, you need to have the ability to sit down and meditate continuously for at least 3 hours. If you live in the US, attend IMS (Insight Meditation Society) or any prominent Vipassana/Theravada related retreat. Zen is a valid form of enlightenment, but it personally felt unstructured.
Gave up music, took time since I was convinced it was needed for creativity. Instead, it was just a substitute source of dopamine and a way to avoid my emotions. Have much less brain fog after quitting. Only communicate using regular phone calls these days, which no one uses, and Snapchat/WhatsApp for texting. Avoid stories, waste of time. Instagram/TwitteFacebook are a waste of time unless you are using it for business purposes. The only social media you really need is LinkedIn.
Women: You’ll learn more about them by reading romantic novels, Korean mangas, and watching Kdramas then reading all that seduction/red pill stuff. Focus on general charisma (men and women) instead of a specific gender. Read “The Charisma Myth” by Olivia Fox Cabane; it’s the most practical book on social skills I have ever read, and possibly the most life-changing as well. Teaches you self-awareness, applies Buddhist psychology to social interaction. Used to train executives in Google, read it now (and do all the exercises). The bibliography sent me on a rabbit hole that made me read ton of books on psychotherapy, meditation, mindfulness, and Buddhism; this was before SR. Inspired me to practice meditation, although the habit only became regular after SR.
Read books such as Crucial Conversations by Al Switzer, Difficult Conversations by Douglas Stone, How to Talk so Kids will Listen by Adele Faber (works very well in general since even adults have childhood programming, and can act like children), Never Split the Difference by Chris Voss (FBI's chief international hostage and kidnapping negotiator from 2003 to 2007), Getting More by Stuart Diamond (trains negotiators at Google), and Pitch Anything by Oren Klaff (more theoretical but useful). Also read The Definitive Book of Body Language by Allan Pease and What Every Body is Saying by Joe Navarro. These are all books that will greatly improve your human interactions and contain limited fluff. Have re-read all of these books in difficult times, and they have never let me down. You should read it as well. Even if you become a monk, there’s lots of social infighting even in monasteries. Highly-developed social skills are invaluable whenever you are dealing with individuals. Read “How to make friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie once in a while, since most forget to apply his “basic” advice. Learned a lot about oral presentations by watching Alan Shore on Boston Legal (TV show).
Current position in life? Studying for a bachelor’s degree. My family is financially well-off, and my father is paying for my college tuition and dorm. Scholarships aren’t available for all income levels. Although I come from “privilege”, the above information can help anyone regardless of their financial position. We live in an era where information is accessible to all social classes, so excuses aren’t that relevant. If you’re practicing SR, you are already 20 steps closer to success. The tips above can be applied for free as long as you have a computesmartphone. Read books starting from today, knowledge is a source of power. People spend so much time reading the news, scrolling social media feeds, reacting to comments, chatting about useless things with friends, binging shows on Netflix, browsing YouTube/Reddit, that time quietly passes by. Time is the most valuable commodity you have; don’t waste such a limited resource on things that will contribute nothing towards your purpose in life. Once it’s spent, you can never get it back.
Personally, I schedule the next day before going to bed. Leisure, Reading, Schoolwork, Meditation, everything is mapped out perfectly. Try to eliminate habits that just waste time and stick to your schedule perfectly (working on it myself). If you feel tired after work/studying, take a nap or meditate instead of receiving even more stimulation from videogames, YouTube, or other artificial dopamine sources. Try NoSurf.

Basic Booklist:

Spirituality:
  1. The End of Your World by Adyashanti (fantastic writer; must-read if you have had an awakening experience or believe you are "enlightened")
  2. How to Attain Enlightenment -> The Essence of Enlightenment by James Swartz (best introduction to Advaita Vedanta I have read so far)
  3. I am That by Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj (essence of Advaita)
  4. In the Buddha's Words by Bhikkhu Bodhi (best introduction to Buddhist scripture)
  5. Why Buddhism is True by Robert Wright (secular perspective but informative; his previous book The Moral Animal is a good introduction to evolutionary psychology. Read this first if you are non-spiritual)
  6. Wisdom Wise and Deep by Shaila Catherine (comprehensive introduction by one of the best Jhana teachers in the US)
  7. The Visuddhimagga
  8. Manual of Insight by Mahasi Sayadaw
  9. Emptiness: A Practical Guide by Guy Armstrong (good introduction to the Buddhist version of reality)
  10. Books by Loch Kelly (practical guide to non-dual meditation practices within Buddhism; The Little Book of Being by Diana Winston may be a better introduction)
  11. Seeing that Frees by Rob Burbea (really advanced but profound)
  12. http://awakeningtoreality.blogspot.com/2007/03/thusnesss-six-stages-of-experience.html (Buddhism > Advaita; ebooks in sidebar)
  13. Books by Robert Bruce such as Psychic Self-Defence and Energy Work
  14. Psychic Witch by Mat Auryn
  15. Dream Yoga by Andrew Holecek (amazing/practical book on lucid dreaming -> dream yoga)
  16. Autobiography of a Yogi
  17. The Practice of Brahmacharya by Swami Sivananda and Soaring Eagle (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/6-years-clean-rebooting-as-the-best-remedy.135983/) if you haven’t read already
  18. Xunzi trans. by Eric Hutton (final evolution of Confucianism)
Novels (use translators mentioned):
http://gen.lib.rus.ec/fiction/ for foreign literature

  1. Musashi by Eiji Yoshikawa (Taiko is decent as well, but this one was a masterpiece)
  2. Romance of the Three Kingdoms trans. Moss Roberts
  3. The Dream of the Red Chamber trans. David Hawkes (read it in the summer of 2017, profound but not all may see the deeper meaning)
  4. The Nine Cloud Dream trans. Heinz Insu Fenkl
  5. Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand (Inspirational for Entrepreneurs, however don’t start adopting this book as economic philosophy. It’s just a novel!)
  6. The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho (read now if you are experiencing an existential crisis)
  7. Dostoevsky’s Crime and Punishment + The Brothers Karamazov (optional reading; prefer Pevear translation)
  8. Perry Mason and Sherlock Holmes Series (pleasure reading but not useless)
Psychotherapy (never visited a therapist, but found these useful):
  1. Getting Past Your Past by Francine Shapiro (by the founder of EMDR, best practical book on trauma and exercises to resolve it)
  2. Complex PTSD: From Surviving to Thriving (another immensely practical book on recovering from trauma)
  3. Breaking the Cycle by George Collins (best practical workbook on sexual addiction I have read; all should read)
  4. Get out of your mind and into your life by Steven Hayes (Was mentioned in the charisma myth booklist; take control of your thoughts and mind by the founder of ACT)
  5. Mindful Compassion by Paul Gilbert and Choden (prominent researcher on compassion applied to therapy; part one can be boring, but part two on practical exercises is invaluable)
  6. Feeling Book by David Burns (rightfully a classic book on therapy and CBT; read if you are suffering from depression)
  7. Healing Development Trauma by Laurence Heller (best book on the impact of childhood/development trauma but meant for therapists, might explain why we use addiction to cope from childhood memories; google ACE study as well)
  8. The Boy who was raised as a Dog by Bruce Perry (stories about children experiencing trauma. Increases empathy for yourself and others; you realize how childhood trauma affects how a lot of people think and behave)
  9. Whole Again: Healing Your Heart and Rediscovering Your True Self After Toxic Relationships and Emotional Abuse by Jackson MacKenzie (fantastic book on recovering from relationship abuse. Many of us have emotional baggage that fuels coping and addiction loops. Read Healing from Hidden Abuse by Shannon Thomas as well.)
  10. Self-Compassion by Kristen Neff (optional reading, but complimentary)
For biographies, read those of presidents and important leaders. Also about famous/successful individuals. Read all of Ron Chernow’s books. Abuse the Amazon Search Engine and look through their categories. Reading biographies can fundamentally enhance your worldview so you realize that real-life issues are much more nuanced and gray rather than black and white. Also shows how successful people deal with difficult crises and their perspective on life. Especially for public policy. If a President implements an economic policy that has short-term gains, but long-term loss, he has a greater chance of being re-elected. However, short-term loss in favor of long-term gain is the correct policy. Employ critical-thinking! Avoid cable news even if you need to stay informed. Don’t even have a television in my house. Unnecessary. Just read 2 – 3 reputable news sources for 20 minutes max. Sometimes I even avoid the news since there’s too much negativity.
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1unyph/a_tantric_perspective_on_the_use_of_sexual_energy/ (tantric meditation technique that actually works; you are supposed to do it for 1 hour. Optional.)
https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/2zn8ev/grounding_201_two_effective_quick_methods/ (grounding method after doing the tantric meditation)
Avoid learning Mantak Chia’s techniques from a book, since some have suffered side-effects to their energetic/biological body. Zero advice for those practicing NEO. Must be hard. Not sure about women, since SR streak is more important. Don’t pick a partner to fulfill some kind of emotional void, or due to societal programming where women are held to be the ultimate goal. Spiritual Enlightenment is the ultimate goal now, but even enlightened people need money for food and shelter.
Youtubers I follow are Graham Stephan, Ryan Serhant, Rupert Spira, and https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCUX1V5UNWP1RUkhLewe77ZQ (cured women objectification for me; wholesome content) although mostly I avoid the website. Easy to loose track of time.
Avoid smoking, alcohol, recreational drug use (https://www.elitedaily.com/wellness/drugs-alcohol-aura-damage/1743959, http://sshc.in/?p=1123 ), casual sex (https://mywakingpath.wordpress.com/tag/aura/; sensitive images but useful), and fast food. Budget your money, and learn how to save as much as possible.
Hope everyone reading this post experiences their definition of success and leads a purposeful life. Will end it by stating two quotes that have inspired and guided me:
“You yourself have to change first, or nothing will change for you!”
― Hideaki Sorachi
“It is not important to be better than someone else, but to be better than you were yesterday.”
― Jigoro Kano (Founder of Judo)

Update 1: Made the instructions regarding super-sped affirmations more clearer.
Update 2: Added the audio file as well to the affirmations link since someone requested it
Update 3: https://starseedsunited.com/negative-entities-and-psychic-attacks (basic article on entities)
Some solutions are posted above. Updated* daily routine:
  1. https://www.reddit.com/kundalini/comments/1xyp5k/a_simple_and_universal_white_light_protection/ (basic psychic self-defence)
  2. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Kt9s5tY1YE (at least once everyday; cures sexual dreams and flushes all entities)
  3. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLeubTQv65Q (best shielding subliminal so far; general protection. Listen at least once everyday)
Note: Will continuously update this post based on further clarification.
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2020.06.17 11:42 bullshitblogger Struggling with vipassana, please help!

*EDIT: I've put my response to all your help and advice in a comment on this thread, here. Thanks everyone! Any continued input/debate is appreciated.*
Hi guys, I'm having some problems with vipassana.
So for context:
I did a 10 day vipassana retreat late december last year. I was travelling at the time, so meditated on and off for the next 2/3 months varying from 0 to 1 to 2 hours per day.
For the past 3 and a half months I've been meditating 2 hours a day about 90% of days, usually doing 1 hour on the other days.
I think I've noticed good benefits. Namely less extreme and pronounced moodswings, and less prone to distractedness. I'm sure because of this that I want to continue meditating in some form for the foreseeable future.
My problems/questions are these:
Main perceived problem: I haven't noticed any tangible improvements in my ability to remain focused (I.e. not get distracted) whilst meditating. It is the same, if not worse, as when I started. This is causing me to doubt myself, a lot, and I'm starting to feel like 'this isn't doing anything'
I was talking with a friend about this, and she suggested that it sounded more sensible to start small, and build concentration from there, and ever since then I've been doubting myself, and I'm starting to feel apprehensive and slightly dread the prospect of sitting down for the hour each time.
Other problems:
  1. I'm not sure I'm ready to commit to all the sila precepts. I occasionally drink alcohol, and I'm sure I want to try psychedelics at some point. Also, I don't feel ready to settle down with 1 sexual partner and want to try and develop my skills at meeting and flirting with the opposite sex. I've read goenka say that this is an important reason that people fail to progress despite a lot of practice, because they don't follow sila. Is there any point in following this technique if I'm not totally committed to the sila?
  2. Part of me feels like it would be healthy to try other techniques than vipassana in goenka tradition. I know goenka pretty much says that his is the real deal, the oldest, the purest, the deepest etc., but I'm sure many adherents of all forms say the same thing. Even the buddha himself experimented and tried a load of different stuff before he found what was right.
Do you guys think trying other vipassana methods, for example The Mind Illuminated, or Sam Harris' app, counts as 'mixing techniques'? I guess if I do try other techniques, i shouldn't mix them with vipassana as taught by goenka, as goenka explicitly says this is unhelpful?
3) I haven't done any groups sittings at all since the 10 day course. Perhaps this is part of the (perceived) problem (?)
I know I've written a lot. Would appreciate any thoughts. Cheers guys.
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2020.06.15 19:27 bullshitblogger Meditation problem, please help!

Hey guys.
I'd like some advice on some difficulties with vipassana please.
For context:
I did a 10 day vipassana retreat late december last year. I was travelling at the time, so meditated on and off for the next 2/3 months varying from 0 to 1 to 2 hours per day.
For the past 3 and a half months I've been meditating 2 hours a day about 90% of days, usually doing 1 hour on the other days.
I think I've noticed good benefits. Namely less extreme and pronounced moodswings, and less prone to distractedness. I'm sure because of this that I want to continue meditating in some form for the foreseeable future.
My problems/questions are these:
Main perceived problem: I haven't noticed any tangible improvements in my ability to remain focused (I.e. not get distracted) whilst meditating. It is the same, if not worse, as when I started. This is causing me to doubt myself, a lot, and I'm starting to feel like 'this isn't doing anything', and that the benefits are starting to regress.
I was talking with a friend about this, and she suggested that it sounded more sensible to start small, and build concentration from there, and ever since then I've been doubting myself, and I'm starting to feel apprehensive and slightly dread the prospect of sitting down for the hour each time.
Other problems:
1) I'm not sure I'm ready to commit to all the sila precepts. I occasionally drink alcohol, and I'm sure I want to try psychedelics at some point. Also, I don't feel ready to settle down with 1 sexual partner and want to try and develop my skills at meeting and flirting with the opposite sex. I've read goenka say that this is an important reason that people fail to progress despite a lot of practice, because they don't follow sila. Is there any point in following this technique if I'm not totally committed to the sila?
2) Part of me feels like it would be healthy to try other techniques. I know goenka pretty much says that vipassana is the real deal, the oldest, the purest, the deepest etc., but I'm sure many adherents of all forms say the same thing. Even the buddha himself experimented and tried a load of different stuff before he found what was right.
3) I haven't done any groups sittings at all since the 10 day course. Perhaps this is part of the (perceived) problem (?)
With all that in mind, my dilemma is this:
Part of me wants to switch and try something else, but part of me feels like it might just be a bump in the road with vipassana and i should keep going.
Would appreciate any thoughts on what I've said. Cheers guys
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2020.06.11 01:09 StatteZitta1 [insight] Could this have been Arising & Passing Away?

Is it possible that I encountered A&P during a period of psychedelic experimentation?
Last year I tried psychedelics (lsd, mushrooms) for the first time, which was followed by about two months of taking relatively small doses (c50-100 mics) maybe once every week or two. This was before I had any experience with meditation or awareness of Buddhist teachings.
Those two months were like nothing I'd ever experienced before (or since). It seemed that I had acquired the ability to observe everything that arose (thoughts, sensations, feelings) completely effortlessly, and being both amused and utterly mesmerized by the contents of my own experience on an almost minute-by-minute basis. I didn't have to do anything, the contents of my experience were just there for me to enjoy. Even the 'negative' emotions or thoughts were not really negative at all, because I had watched them arise and I knew they were essentially empty and 'harmless'. This allowed me to see them in their context and there was beauty in them too, just as much as there was beauty in the 'positive' emotions and thoughts. My emotions were also much more intense and I would find myself e.g. tearing up just at the thought of anything remotely moving. I also remember not caring at all about what others thought and feeling completely at ease with myself, which was a kind of superpower - I remember being at work and casually chatting with one of the partners at the firm (which I used to always shy away from) and actually enjoying it! No self-consciousness, no second-guessing, no tension, the right words just came out of my mouth and I could just sit back, watch the exchange unfold and have fun. I was also flooded with a sudden enthusiasm for life and for everything in it, making plans about all the things I wanted to do, all the skills I wanted to pick up, all the things I wanted to learn about, etc. I was basically in a near-constant state of bliss and excitement. But above all, everything just felt extremely effortless.
That's when I started dabbling in meditation and reading about Buddhist concepts, and some of the Buddhist truths seemed immediately obvious, especially the concept of emptiness. My day-to-day experience basically felt like I was watching a movie or playing a videogame because I could see that it was fundamentally just a world of appearances, that everything just arose and passed away, so emptiness felt very natural. Meditation too was exceptionally effortless, even though I'd just picked it up - I had tremendous concentration and I could just drop into a very focused and relaxed state as soon as I would sit down.
Anyway long story short, after about two months of this I had a pretty horrible experience on a 100 mic dose of acid which led me into a spiraling depression and anxiety that lasted several months, and that was the end of any intense experimentation with substances. In the 18 months since then I've been meditating c40 mins per day, have read widely on Buddhism and have joined a local sangha which I go along to (now virtually).
So I've since often wondered what the heck that experience was all about. I was just reading this
article on Dharma Overground and it seemed like maybe it could have been A&P / 2nd vipassana jhana, so I was just hoping to test this hypothesis with people who know what they're talking about more than I do. I do also sometimes worry that I may have ruined my chances of following the path properly given how things went, so any tips in that regard would be appreciated as well. Thanks for reading and hope you're all keeping safe! :)
TL;DR: Trying to understand whether I could have experienced A&P / second vipassana jhana following psychedelic experimentation without any meditative training.
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2020.04.22 14:20 cedricreeves Free 7 Weeks Online Meditation Course: Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service in Business

Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service Free 7 Weeks Online Meditation Course Suitable for Beginners

Online Course

May 3rd – June 14th 2020

Overview

This course is for anyone who is interested in beginning and sustaining a meditation practice, and using that as a basis to develop ethical behavior and happiness in life, generally. You will learn to how to infuse into your life with both mindful awareness, and sincere concern for others. No prior meditation experience is required to participate in the class.
Learning objectives: We will cover cultivating 1) mindfulness and self-awareness, 2) ethics that support integrity, and trustworthiness, 3) sincere friendliness towards ourselves and others as a means to cultivate happiness and healing, 4) relaxation around uncertainty and risk and 5) how to develop a daily seated meditation practice as well as 6) an informal mindfulness practice for your daily walking around life.
There will be lots of space for discussion and questions about meditation practice and trouble-shooting the questions and problems that always come up around starting meditation practice. The daily practice recommendation will be 30 minutes of formal meditation practice five times a week.
About the teacher: My name is Cedric Reeves. I was an entrepreneur for 15 years. Then, about eight years ago I found that I was getting more and more overworked, depressed, anxious, and generally dissatisfied with life. Something had to change. I had been meditating, but just off and on for years. I knew it was powerful if only applied more consistently. So, reduced my business responsibilities drastically, and rededicated myself to meditation: doing meditation retreats, consistent meditation at home, and studying Buddhism and related material. As a result things markedly improved; the depression and anxiety went away.
I have practiced Zen, Vipassana, and Advaita Vedanta, and done over 300 days on meditation retreat. Moreover, I am certified Unified Mindfulness coach. Now, my primary vocation is teaching meditation.
Cost: Free.
The class will be recorded and will be available after the course is done. We’ll meet using the online video-call software Zoom.
We’ll meet online once a week for the seven weeks, and each session will last for 90 mins.

Syllabus

Week 1: Introduction to the class & mindfulness and the benefits of establishing a regular practice (May 3rd 2020)
Week 2: How to be a friend: instruction on loving kindness meditation (May 10th)
Week 3: Instruction on compassion meditation (May 17th)
Week 4: Sympathetic Joy instruction on how to cultivate joyous appreciation of the good qualities of others (May 24th)
Week 5: Don’t know mind and how to cultivate a peaceful mind (May 31st)
Week 6: Trigger Practice, and Daily Life Practice (June 7th)
Week 7: How to deepen your practice going forward (June 14th)

Two Time Slots Offered

The class will be taught twice to reach people in different time zones. The content is the same. 1) USA Sunday Morning & Europe Wednesday Evening Class:
2) USA Sunday Evening Class

To sign up:

Please fill out this google form with you email. I will email you the day before the class starts with the Zoom links for the two time slot options.
Signup for Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service
It’s recommended to come to all classes. But, it’s no big deal if you miss one and then pick up the next class.
Feel free to forward this to friends who might find this class beneficial.
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2020.04.22 05:17 cedricreeves Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service while in Business Free 7 Weeks Online Course

May 3rd – June 14th 2020

Overview

This course is for anyone who is interested in beginning and sustaining a meditation practice, and using that as a basis to develop ethical behavior and happiness in life, generally. You will learn to how to infuse into your life with both mindful awareness, and sincere concern for others. No prior meditation experience is required to participate in the class.
Learning objectives: We will cover cultivating 1) mindfulness and self-awareness, 2) ethics that support integrity, and trustworthiness, 3) sincere friendliness towards ourselves and others as a means to cultivate happiness and healing, 4) relaxation around uncertainty and risk and 5) how to develop a daily seated meditation practice as well as 6) an informal mindfulness practice for your daily walking around life.
There will be lots of space for discussion and questions about meditation practice and trouble-shooting the questions and problems that always come up around starting meditation practice. The daily practice recommendation will be 30 minutes of formal meditation practice five times a week.
About the teacher: My name is Cedric Reeves. I was an entrepreneur for 15 years. Then, about eight years ago I found that I was getting more and more overworked, depressed, anxious, and generally dissatisfied with life. Something had to change. I had been meditating, but just off and on for years. I knew it was powerful if only applied more consistently. So, reduced my business responsibilities drastically, and rededicated myself to meditation: doing meditation retreats, consistent meditation at home, and studying Buddhism and related material. As a result things markedly improved; the depression and anxiety went away.
I have practiced Zen, Vipassana, and Advaita Vedanta, and done over 300 days on meditation retreat. Moreover, I am certified Unified Mindfulness coach. Now, my primary vocation is teaching meditation.
Cost: Free.
The class will be recorded and will be available after the course is done. We’ll meet using the online video-call software Zoom.
We’ll meet online once a week for the seven weeks, and each session will last for 90 mins.

Syllabus

Week 1: Introduction to the class & mindfulness and the benefits of establishing a regular practice (May 3rd 2020)
Week 2: How to be a friend: instruction on loving kindness meditation (May 10th)
Week 3: Instruction on compassion meditation (May 17th)
Week 4: Sympathetic Joy instruction on how to cultivate joyous appreciation of the good qualities of others (May 24th)
Week 5: Don’t know mind and how to cultivate a peaceful mind (May 31st)
Week 6: Trigger Practice, and Daily Life Practice (June 7th)
Week 7: How to deepen your practice going forward (June 14th)

Two Time Slots Offered

The class will be taught twice to reach people in different time zones. The content is the same. 1) USA Sunday Morning & Europe Wednesday Evening Class:
2) USA Sunday Evening Class

To sign up:

Please fill out this google form with you email. I will email you the day before the class starts with the Zoom links for the two time slot options.
Signup for Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service
It’s recommended to come to all classes. But, it’s no big deal if you miss one and then pick up the next class.
Feel free to forward this to friends who might find this class beneficial.
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2020.04.22 05:00 cedricreeves Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service in Business Free 7 Weeks Online Meditation Course

Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service Free 7 Weeks Online Meditation Course Suitable for Beginners

Online Course

May 3rd – June 14th 2020

Overview

This course is for anyone who is interested in beginning and sustaining a meditation practice, and using that as a basis to develop ethical behavior and happiness in life, generally. You will learn to how to infuse into your life with both mindful awareness, and sincere concern for others. No prior meditation experience is required to participate in the class.
Learning objectives: We will cover cultivating 1) mindfulness and self-awareness, 2) ethics that support integrity, and trustworthiness, 3) sincere friendliness towards ourselves and others as a means to cultivate happiness and healing, 4) relaxation around uncertainty and risk and 5) how to develop a daily seated meditation practice as well as 6) an informal mindfulness practice for your daily walking around life.
There will be lots of space for discussion and questions about meditation practice and trouble-shooting the questions and problems that always come up around starting meditation practice. The daily practice recommendation will be 30 minutes of formal meditation practice five times a week.
About the teacher: My name is Cedric Reeves. I was an entrepreneur for 15 years. Then, about eight years ago I found that I was getting more and more overworked, depressed, anxious, and generally dissatisfied with life. Something had to change. I had been meditating, but just off and on for years. I knew it was powerful if only applied more consistently. So, reduced my business responsibilities drastically, and rededicated myself to meditation: doing meditation retreats, consistent meditation at home, and studying Buddhism and related material. As a result things markedly improved; the depression and anxiety went away.
I have practiced Zen, Vipassana, and Advaita Vedanta, and done over 300 days on meditation retreat. Moreover, I am certified Unified Mindfulness coach. Now, my primary vocation is teaching meditation.
Cost: Free.
The class will be recorded and will be available after the course is done. We’ll meet using the online video-call software Zoom.
We’ll meet online once a week for the seven weeks, and each session will last for 90 mins.

Syllabus

Week 1: Introduction to the class & mindfulness and the benefits of establishing a regular practice (May 3rd 2020)
Week 2: How to be a friend: instruction on loving kindness meditation (May 10th)
Week 3: Instruction on compassion meditation (May 17th)
Week 4: Sympathetic Joy instruction on how to cultivate joyous appreciation of the good qualities of others (May 24th)
Week 5: Don’t know mind and how to cultivate a peaceful mind (May 31st)
Week 6: Trigger Practice, and Daily Life Practice (June 7th)
Week 7: How to deepen your practice going forward (June 14th)

Two Time Slots Offered

The class will be taught twice to reach people in different time zones. The content is the same. 1) USA Sunday Morning & Europe Wednesday Evening Class:
2) USA Sunday Evening Class

To sign up:

Please fill out this google form with you email. I will email you the day before the class starts with the Zoom links for the two time slot options.
Signup for Cultivating Joy and the Heart of Service
It’s recommended to come to all classes. But, it’s no big deal if you miss one and then pick up the next class.
Feel free to forward this to friends who might find this class beneficial.
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2020.03.29 11:38 MokMok89 What do you THINK about the NEVILLE GODDARD concept?

Is this real? I mean at a certain instance I am sure it works and help to reprogram our subconscious mind to attract things we always wanted, such as a dream job, a house, the perfect partner, etc. but it says also that by assuming and understanding the concept of everyone is you pushed out, you can attract anyone you want and change people's mind regarding an idea or a perception of something or someone. It saying you can even attract someone to love you who hate you or attract a text message.
I tried to fall into this, but wrongly because of lost love. I am someone very grounded, I practice breathwork mainly, a bit of meditation and learned many meditation techniques to go through my Vipassana silent in retreat (it helped) which made me more grounded.
Anyway, what is your point of view? is an antagonist of peace and mindfulness? Or does it get along when any mindful concept?
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2020.03.26 09:45 liamvdw94 Needing Guidance after Vipassana Nightmare

Hello, So before I start, this is going to be a long post, but I'll include a tl;dr at the end. My story also includes a suicide attempt and ideation, as well as other potential mental health triggers including psychosis and depression. Just so everyone knows before starting.
So, I am an old student in the Goenka tradition, having sat my first course in 2015 and having gained a lot from it. I did it at the ripe old age of 21, and it really impacted the way I see humanity, my mind and the world. It really fundamentally changed my world view and helped me realise that vipassana is one of the most important things to humanity. I feel it's important to stress how much vipassana impacted me as a result of my first course, as it shapes my present situation quite a lot.
After my course, I went back to my life and started doing my two hours a day quite consistently for around 6 months. Then this slipped to an hour a day, then became progressively less frequent, as happens to so many students.
Fast forward 4 years and I am not really practicing in any meaningful way. I started studying medicine and found it incredibly stressful. I put a lot of pressure on myself, to the point where I got bad insomnia and anxiety. In light of all this, I decided to reconnect with vipassana, seeing as it made such an impression on me after my first course, and I hoped it would help me eradicate the sankharas of stress and anxiety I generated while at medical school. I signed up for a course and keenly awaited it.
Fast forward again and I am arriving in Madrid, having decided to sit the course in Spain. Shortly before the course starts, I make a series of bad decisions that led to me being prescribed anti-retroviral medication, namely tenofovir and raltegravir. Later, I arrive at my course, happily handing my phone and belongings in and preparing myself mentally for what I know will be an intense experience. I fill in the arrival form, fully disclosing that I am taking the anti-retroviral medication. I head to my bed and get ready.
To say the first days of the course were hard is an understatement. I remember thinking to myself 'it feels like I am dragging my soul through the fires of hell'. I know that sounds hyperbolic but it was really rough. I started crying several times, once in front of the AT. And that was just with anapana meditation.
I endured this for the first three days of the course. On the evening of day 3, I find the leaflet that came with one of the medications, and I decide to read it out of desperation for something to do. This is kind of where it all started going wrong. I read that depression and anxiety can be a rare side effect of the medication. I latched on to this thought and, logically or not, that this was the reason I'd be having a severely difficult time in the first three days. I told myself I would stop taking the medication, and see if this helped.
The next morning I got up and attended the morning sittings. I think it was after breakfast that one of these infamous 'storms' hit me. I was overcome with desperation to leave the retreat, and decided I would, concluding that the medication caused the severe difficulty of the first few days and justified my leaving. I got up and left an hour long sit, and went outside to wait for it to finish and to speak to the course manager. Eventually he came out, and I asked him if I could speak to the AT. He complied and before I knew it, I was in front of him.
I explained my situation and he complications of the medication, and he listened. I said I wanted to leave and, given the situation with the medication, the AT granted me this. He also said that since I left before vipassana meditation started, I shouldn't worry too much about the negative effects of 'leaving the operation early'. I left the room, packed my things and left the course at around noon on day 4.
Everything was fine initially. I got back to Madrid, booked a hostel and spoke to my family and partner on the phone. I kept crying while speaking to them because of how overwhelming the course had been. That night, I settled down to sleep, and that's when everything kicked off.
It's hard to describe, but it's like my mind became unhinged. I became convinced that vipassana is the only real way to significantly personally develop, and I saw my leaving the course early as me succumbing to the sankhara I had been working on. I began to suffer panic attacks which focused on the belief that I thought I had done irreversible damage to my mind, and the only way to remedy this would be to practice vipassana, thus opening up a vicious cycle. I didn't sleep the whole first night as a result of these panic attacks. Unfortunately this was only the start.
I made my way back to my native England over the next 48 hours. During this time, the panic attacks started getting worse, and, as mentioned above, the belief that I had done irreversible damage to myself kept growing. I became obsessed with vipassana, seeing it as the only way out of this mess but by not being able to do it, being condemned to the state I was in. Over time my mind unhinged more and more. I started becoming suicidal, convinced that death was the only way out. I threw myself from a 2 meter garden wall in my state and had to be restrained from grabbing knives in the kitchen (with the intent of self harming).
Eventually I was taken to a psychiatric hospital by my parents. This is where my memory starts becoming hazy. I started entering fugue states which I (by definition) don't remember. This all came to a head in the psychiatric hospital. This is where the story gets violent, so skip to the next paragraph if you'd rather not read this. I managed to find a plate in the ward kitchen, which I progressed to smash and use to cut both of my wrists open in a blatant suicide attempt. I collapsed onto a sink, breaking it and alerting staff that something was wrong. They then found me and drugged me to sedate me.
The rest of what happened is a blur. I have no recollection of what happened for around 3 weeks after the suicide attempt, but from what family tell me, I was either ranting about suicide or was too drugged up to function for most of it. I had to be put in restraints to stop me from attempting suicide again. I didn't sleep during the nights and the doctors resorted to putting me to sleep for 2 days eith drugs. After this, I started calming down, and the episode came to a close.
The psychiatrist diagnosed me with psychotic depression, but I have never really accepted this label because I know what happened to me was something unseen to mainstream psychiatry. I hadn't been diagnosed with any mental disorder before this episode, so it really came out of the blue. I was put on a regimen of strong anti-psychotic and anti-depressant medication. I have done irreversible damage to the nerves in both of my wrists, meaning I have sensory loss in both of my hands. I have unsightly scars on both wrists.
To make matters worse, during my 'psychosis' I wrote a desperate email to the folks at Dhamma Dipa, explaining what happened and appealing to them for help. The response was essentially 'stop meditating' but, unknown to me, they saved the email in their records under my name. I recently applied to serve on a short course, and their response was that I was banned from attending any further Goenka courses for life with the reason that they could not accept anyone with any history of mental disturbance.
This is where my emphasis on how fundamental my first course was in shaping my world view comes in. Vipassana has been a cornerstone of who I am since my first course. To be told that, after everything else, I am banned from attending another course is almost too much to bear. I see it as condemning me to a life of unrelenting suffering and misery, of which there is plenty thanks to my episode and the lasting damage I did to my hands and wrists. I still don't know how to fully comprehend this blow either.
It is now six months after everything happened. I am still on drugs and am still reeling from the entire episode, overwhelmed by the regret at having chosen to leave the retreat and start taking the drug that led to me leaving in the first place. I can't help but think what my life would be if I had stayed on the course. I have tried to come to terms with my scars and the disability of having sensory loss in both hands, but have not managed. I can't comprehend what happened to me, and often find it hard to go on. I have been feeling suicidal since it all happened, and have often contemplated 'ending it all', even though I know that, as Goenka says, suicide is no answer and my next life would be agony anyway. But I am tempted by the thought that, as I have been banned from the Goenka courses anyway, at least in my next life I wouldn't be banned and could deal with my sankharas.
One ray of light has come into my life despite all of this though. After my banning from the Goenka retreats, I desperately looked for a replacement. Through reddit, I stumbled upon International Meditation Centre retreats, which happen in the UK. IMC retreats also teach in the tradition of Sayagyi U Ba Khin. I contacted the teacher there and decided to be as open with him as I have been in this post, which was terrifying considering the last time I had done that I had been banned. Luckily he replied to me with a detailed 'road map' of how I can recover and come back to IMC meditation after a year of studying sila and practicing dana. Although I am deeply, deeply grateful for this, I am worried that the course won't be as effective as the Goenka course (it's only 9 hours a day and w/o sittings of great determination), but I guess it's all I can get.
I guess in posting this I am looking for a few things. Input from people who know what vipassana is, and what they think happened would be a start. I know all about 'leaving in the middle of open heart surgery' but any further opinions or insights are welcome. In my opinion, I was working on a particularly deeply rooted sankhara, which is why the first three days were such torture, and leaving early left my mind open and exposed, precipitating the following events. I guess I'm also looking for any advice on how I can move ahead with my life after experiencing this, and whether someone out there has or knows someone who has experienced something like this. And finally, I want my story to be a warning to others. Vipassana is a powerful technique and can do the world of good, but if you don't follow the rules, it can literally kill you. I'm lucky to have survived, but I have read and heard of cases that weren't so lucky.
Sorry for the long and sobering post, but I am too lonely and desperate in all this to keep it to myself. I'm not expecting this or any responses to make it any better, but I just wanted to hear what people have to say. With metta.
Tl;dr: left vipassana retreat early, had mental breakdown, attempted suicide, am lost during recovery.
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2020.02.24 06:59 freedomfromPMO Dealing with Lust

Do any Vipassana meditators battle lust issues on a daily basis? If so how do you work through it?

It could be pornography, infidelity, prostitutes or even lusting after your partner that it affects your sanity.

I would like to talk to you and seek help on this matter.
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2020.02.14 07:32 whatisqueso In the thick of it - Processing my trauma.

First of all, I feel a bit uncomfortable sharing this as i've browsed through some of these posts and have read accounts of extremely difficult experiences that i believe eclipse mine and make me self-conscious for posting on here. Just writing that sentence is one of the obstacles that's prevented me from delving into my own trauma - still working on it but getting better.
Its going to be a long post, so brace yourself.
I'm 31, male, asian-american. I've lived quite an alternative life, especially in the past 5 years.
- backpacked for 11 months in 2015 (most time spent in South Asia)
- attended an extensive ayahusaca retreat in the fall of 2016 which consisted of 18 ceremonies over 40 days (I do not suggest anyone to do this unless they're deep into the practice, I personally would never go through a retreat with that many ceremonies in such a time span due to the difficulties of integration and destabilization of the psyche)
- meditated daily for the past 4 years (vipassana method from the Therevadan tradition)
- sat in 6 silent meditation retreats (Vipassana - Goenka tradition)
- backpacked for 6 months in 2018 (most time spent in India)
I started this journey since I felt discontent with life, apathetic, and disturbed by my mind and thought process (extremely judgmental & self deprecating). I went with the intention of figuring out how to process life in a healthier manner, to be happier, to be more fulfilled. Prior to all of this, I was in the dark about mental illnesses, suicidal ideation, etc. I never thought I carried any of this with myself.
I've been in romantic relationships from 2007 - 2017 with only a 2 month gap at most. I wasn't consciously trying to find relationships after breakups, "it just happened".
When I came back from my trip to India in 2018, I was single and was dealing with health issues. I was in good spirits since I found myself in a healthy headspace with all the internal work and discoveries I've made in the past few years. My health continued to deteriorate once I settled back at home. It got to point where I was convinced I was going to die, I was miserable. At times, I would lose sense of reality as it dissolved any stability that I had, physically & mentally. This triggered a depression as well as heavy anxiety, suicidal ideation, and paranoia at times. It's been almost 2 years since I've felt physically healthy, albiet, I feel amazing compared to how i felt 3 months ago, 6 months ago, 1 year ago. A short summary of the physical symptoms: extremely bloated 24/7 to the point of discomfort, can feel the skin stretching way past its capacity as well as my large intestines; lethargic and low cognitive capacity; constant dehydration which opens up a myriad of other symptoms, losing circulation to my legs, numbing sensation in my face, nausea, weight loss, vertigo. I just felt ill, easiest way to describe it is having the flu & being hungover everyday while making conscious decisions to stay healthy. It felt like my body was attacking itself.
That's enough context.
I'm quite versed in psychology, trauma, meditation, and psychedelics as a therapeutic catalyst. With that and all my previous experiences, there was a huge mental blockage that sequestered what was truly ailing me. None of what I'm working with right now clearly showed itself or was felt during my travels, meditation retreats, or ayahuasca ceremonies.
I had a poor relationship with my mom once I started to form my own personality, especially since I consider myself quite eccentric and alternative in the eyes of my mother. My mom is a devoted Christian and is deeply committed to her faith which brought up a lot of issues in our relationship. My dad was an alcoholic and was more of a background painting to me than anything else. When I was 13, the relationship got to a point where it was clear I hated my mom and she didn't love me (from the child's perspective). Shortly after, my parents split and my mom was diagnosed with an aggressive cancer on her jaw that required an intensive surgery - 2 years to live with surgery, 1 year to live without. When all that happened, I was the only one living with my mom. My dad left and was living with his new girlfriend/wife (pretty clear he was having an affair) and my brother was in college (he hated me at this point and started to grapple with depression shortly after and still is).
For years I thought this didn't have much affect on me, since I clearly remember not feeling anything in those moments. Even with everything that I read and learned about trauma, I felt either I would have to process it at one point of my life or that it just didn't effect me like it did with others. yeah, I was way off aha
The past year I've been climbing myself out of my depression, nilhism, and loneliness. This is the longest I've been single which has worked as a highly effective cloaking device of my repressed emotions the prior years. It's just incredible to me that even with all the work I've done on myself and psychedelic journeys, that none of this was able to be shown to me as of recently.
I've been able to touch and engage with my emotions and frustrations I had when growing up through psychedelics in a more mindful manner the past year. 2 months ago, I touched a relic that was so far removed from me that all the other attempts at understanding it was unavailable. I've started to process and feel the emotions of what it was like to not be loved and what that entails: rage, despair, helplessness, suicidal ideation, desire to cause harm. It cracked open even more a few weeks ago and it released the flood gates that's been protecting my psyche from these emotions for so many years.
The waves of emotions have been intense and alarming at times. I've been swimming in rage, sadness, and despair everyday. I'll have about 2 hours on average each night where I can engage with the emotions fully which throw me back into my childhood in which pieces of my trauma have been unearthed and the feelings and voice that were never expressed having the opportunity to do so. It makes me extremely sad that I had no idea about this part of myself that I've been neglecting. I get scared at times that it'll never end. Its been difficult to function in life and stay balance as these emotions shift my thought patterns (flashes of wanting to wreak havoc, feeling that i'm dying/suffocating etc.). I've been very much to myself the past 3 weeks to nurture and heal as much as I can, to finally hold these emotions that've been neglected for decades.
I've come to realize the reason for the intensity of my experience was due to the cancer. We went through years of not speaking to each other while living in the same house, my mom and i. I had to make a stronger defense mechanism to protect myself from the uncertainty of her life. If i was to love her, miss her, or need her, that means I would have to face the fact that she might die. That's all entangled with my previous defense mechanism of hating her to protect myself from the feeling of being unloved. If anyone has touched that feeling, you know how excruciating it is. The first time I felt what its like to be unloved by the one that's suppose to love you the most, the symbol of the universe, it feels like you're being violently burned from the inside out while recognizing its from the person that you believe loves you to much - confusing and terrorizing.
What makes this more challenging is now that I see the roots of my suffering, the defense mechanism I instilled in my youth no longer work (sexual encounters, seeking a romantic partner, porn, social media, etc). I see right through them so they collapse onto themselves. The only respite I get is in my sleep so for that I'm grateful.
I'm at a point where I understand my mom loves me, as well as my dad. they just didn't love me the way i needed to be. I know the situation that unfolded was something outside of my moms control, she was grappling with her own anxiety and depression triggered by the ambiguity of her mortality. With that, I'm still processing a lot of emotions and I'm tired. I'm tired of feeling helpless, feeling the world crushing over me while the illusion of security collapsing under my feet, having thoughts yearning for death, feeling rage and wanting to wreak havoc. But with that, I am also grateful that I finally have a chance to heal. I'm doing my best to trust the process and will be signing up for therapy next week to help me process some of my experiences.
This has been an arduous journey, not just these past 2 months, but 5 years of trying to get to the root of my suffering. Thank you for reading and I hope this makes some sense. I rarely write down my experiences for others to absorb it so I hope my experience is somewhat readable.
TL;DR: did a bunch of psychedelics in the past and self work but now my trauma has finally revealed itself. Been in the thick of it the past few weeks and am exhausting from these feelings but doing my best to trust the process and hold myself through these experiences.
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2020.02.09 17:00 WorldTraveler2222 Searching for a vipassana group in my city (Rio de Janeiro)

I'm currently living in Rio de Janeiro, and I'm looking for vipassana meditation partners or groups. There's a center just outside of the city, so I know there are some vipassana meditators in Rio. I've looked on meetup.com etc. but I can't find any groups specifically practicing vipassana. Any ideas on how to contact anyone who might be interested in a weekly meditation? Feel free to contact me if you live in Rio and you're interested in meeting up :)
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2020.02.09 16:54 WorldTraveler2222 Searching for meditation groups in Rio

Hello everyone! I'm a gringo currently living in Rio for the next few months. Ideally, I'm looking for a meditation partner or group to do some vipassana meditation in the style of S.N. Goenka. But generally, I'm looking for any kind of weekly meditation group. Feel free to contact me if you're interested or have any recommendations. Thanks!
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2020.01.28 06:30 yntn0706 The flood of sexual thoughts in my meditation sessions is getting tiring

I am currently practice with the Mahasi tradition. It’s also called Vipassana, but instead of body scanning, we mainly keep attention on the stomach.
By the way, I’ve been staying in this monastery for about 20 days, and today the intrusion of sexual thoughts is most prominent. It’s a little bit similar to the Clockwork Orange scene where the protagonist is tied to the chair, with his eyes pried open to violence scenes on the screen. For me, it’s the porn I’ve watched ever since.
At first, I felt guilt. After a while, I felt more comfortable with the imaginary, but the comfort comes along with the simulation of the body. My body reacts promptly with the footage of porn in my mind. Today, it gets tiring.
I know it’s normal and inevitable. I feel a wee bit aversion to porn now that the flashback gets tiring. There are two thoughts following up each session: either I’ll find my first ever sex partner after this retreat and get it over with, or I’ll give up porn or sexual activity altogether after the retreat.
I don’t feel comfortable talking about this with my meditation teacher or peer. So here I vent, reddit.
P.s: some good one told me that ‘getting it over with’ will leave a deep rooted wound, so that’s what I won’t do.
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2020.01.28 04:18 yntn0706 The flood of sexual thoughts popping up in my meditation sessions is getting tiring

I am currently practice with the Mahasi tradition. It’s also called Vipassana, but instead of body scanning, we mainly keep attention on the stomach.
By the way, I’ve been staying in this monastery for about 20 days, and today the intrusion of sexual thoughts is most prominent. It’s a little bit similar to the Clockwork Orange scene where the protagonist is tied to the chair, with his eyes pried open to violence scenes on the screen. For me, it’s the porn I’ve watched ever since.
At first, I felt guilt. After a while, I felt more comfortable with the imaginary, but the comfort comes along with the simulation of the body. My body reacts promptly with the footage of porn in my mind. Today, it gets tiring.
I know it’s normal and inevitable. I feel a wee bit aversion to porn now that the flashback gets tiring. There are two thoughts following up each session: either I’ll find my first ever sex partner after this retreat and get it over with, or I’ll give up porn or sexual activity altogether after the retreat.
I don’t feel comfortable talking about this with my meditation teacher or peer. So here I vent, reddit.
Update: I talked to the teacher about this problem. He didn’t comment on the excessiveness, but he said the reason I’m tired is because I hold contempt for the thoughts. I denied the contempt at first, but he insisted that is the case. After some more sitting, I do felt like I have placed some revulsion/attachment between the mindfulness and those sexual images.
Anyway, the sitting sessions following were without the excessiveness of porn. Just the normal amount. Thanks for your comment.
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